This is not you, your a survivor. Did something trigger this that you can think of? You can always find some gold in all the muddy waters.
I would like to suggest that you get to your physician for a good physical as perhaps this is a medical problem.
We all have our down times but we usually recognize them from past bumps in the road. This is new for you so please get a check up.
Love ya my friendKitt
Kitt, Co-Moderator: Anxiety/Panic & Depression& GERD Forums*~*
I dont know how you feel about prayer, but you are in mine. I really hope you can see the light at the end of the tunnel.
Thoughts and prayers are with you
Good Morning Mary,
It is Sunday Morning and I am saying a prayer for you now.......and lots of hugs too.
Sweet Mama Mary,
I know you are going through a great deal of turmoil and stress right now. Enough to bring down anyone..so please don't feel you are "letting" anyone down. No way, never. You've helped pull me out of a few dark places and you know that. You are not only a survivor, you are an inspiration. Please, please know you are always in my prayers and not far from my thoughts.
This will pass..it has in the past and it will again. Allow yourself 30 minutes a day to wallow and then get out there and do what makes you feel alive. As they say "fake it till you make it". You are a tough cookie and you will get through this. Don't give in to the negative thoughts..kick them in the teeth
Now I'm hoping you get the "zip" back in your zippety doo daa really soon,
Love and hugs and cream covered hot chocolates for you my dear friend.
I know exactly how you feel as I felt that way when I took my early retirement due to the Depression and Anxiety. I felt like a complete failure, did not even want to go to my retirement party because I was a loser. My selfesteem was buried somewhere with in me.
I know now that was "stinkin thinkin" but it was how I felt and I was at a loss to know what to do so I cried a lot.
You are not a loser. You are a winner, you have won all of us over by your kind and caring posts and the love you share with all.
Perhaps you do need a bump in your meds. I can picture you riding to the beach on your scooter................how fun.
I am praying for you to pull out of this deep hole and we are all up here at the top waiting for you. Take our hand we will help you.
I'm glad you are getting some "zippedy" back in your life. You know you are never a burden and we love you.
Let that grief out..it's okay to be sad and bitter sometimes..we would never judge you for that. Be as gentle with yourself as you always are with us.
Marie-Claire you always worthy of us, every one has up and downs, sometimes those downs can big ones. Guess we only try to help each other through it and offer all the understanding and support we can give. I really hope you're feeling back to your usual self soon and its good to hear the laughter is beginning to return to your life. I hope thinks get alo better for you once the increased meds have a chance to work.
p.s the shaking inside the body makes alot of sense.
My Dear Sweet Mary,
First of all I am so happy that you are talking to us. It feels to me that you have been beaten down so many times in your life that you have some issues with low self esteem. Now that is just my thoughts running wild on a motor scooter on the beach.........(HUGS)
Lets try to get that esteem up. OK?
People with low self esteem
Are typically unassertive in their behavior with others.
Are fearful of conflict with others.
Are hungry for the approval of others.
Are fraught with irrational beliefs and have a tendency to think irrationally.
Are susceptible to all kinds of fears.
Have a tendency to become emotionally stuck and immobilized.
Are unable to affirm or to reinforce themselves positively.
Are unable to make an honest assessment of their strengths, qualities, and good points; they find it difficult to accept compliments or recognition from others.
Have poorly defined self-identities with a tendency to be chameleons in order to fit in with others.
Are insecure, anxious, and nervous when they are with others.
Often become overcome with anger about their status in life and are likely to have chronic hostility or chronic depression.
Are easily overcome with despair and depression when they experience a setback or loss in their lives.
Fulfill roles in their families of origin that are counter-productive and maladaptive. These roles carry over into their adult lives.
Are vulnerable to mental health problems and have a propensity to use addictive behavior to medicate their hurt and pain. Such addictive behavior can include alcohol, drugs, food, gambling, shopping, smoking, workaholism, or the search for excitement, truth, wisdom, and a guru with an easy guide to the achievement of happiness. Reference: James J. Messina, Ph.D. & Constance M. Messina, Ph.D
Whoa.......this is me. Go figure.
I have been working on many of these issues and I do understand looking for a guru with a magic wand. How grand that would be.
I will help you work on building your self esteem back up. But you have to promise to love yourself first. Many warm prayers for you my dear friend.LoveKitt