thankyou for support and suggestions. my principal knows i struggle physically, i was very upfront with him when i started at this school 3 years ago. they cant just fire me etc and i know teachers at my work who have more time off than i do, but i still wish i could manage a basic 5 day week like the majority of society. i used to nurse and that suited me well as shift work is flexible. but i love teaching.
Percycat, unfortunately i am stuck with that classroom. im not the only one at work with a sauna for a classroom- we have basically been told to deal with it, suck it up, cope and move on. its so unfair to expect the kids to behave and learn when i see the heat agitates them as much as it does me..
the guilt trip actually comes from my parents, my dad the most, who implies that i have a dodgy work ethic. ive tried reasoning and explainig and he still ends up being very cold to me if i have a day off. he knows and believes im sick, he thinks i should quit and find a career that isnt so demanding, but i love my job, it took me 4 yrs at uni to get my degree, and yes, the kids i teach are super rough around the edges, but im happy there.
considering my first pyschiatrist told me i would never function as a member of society due to the severity of my panic disorder, i feel i have come a very long way (i was 14 when he delivered that verdict). yes i am traumatised by my illnesses, both mental and physical but i am smart and focused and passionate about helping the kids from 'the wrong side of the tracks'.
thanks, peace & blessings,
p.s i should mention i have never had a panic attack at work which means i must be in the right place- i just feel like im irresponsible because im always sick (physically) and although the school has been very patient and tolerant, that can only last so long....
'He heals the broken hearted and binds up their wounds.' (Psalm 147:3)
Chronic Fatigue, Fibromyalgia, TMJ disorder, Endometriosis, Polycystic Ovaries, Chronic ear/nose/throat infections, Panic Disorder, Reactive Arthritis, Agoraphobia, Migraines, GERD, Anaemia, Sinusitis, Chronically perforated eardrums, Pinched Nerves, IBS, Tachycardia, Allergies, Insomnia, Trichotilomania, Glandular Fever, Bursitis, Encapsulitis, Seasonal Mood Disorder, Mild OCD.
Meds: Zoloft 150mg. Xanax 4mg. Nexium. Celebrex. Mobic. Panadeine Forte. Digesic.
Multiple surgeries- I bear the scars of my poor physical health.
Age:28. First diagnosed at 14. Proud Aussie. XX.