Hi, im Maz. Im 28. been battling A/P since age 10. also agoraphobia, mild ocd, s.a.d. CFS & Fibro. PCOD & endometriosis.
im a high school teacher, believer, painter, survivor, tomboy, child of God. im on Zoloft 150mgs and Xanax 4mgs. plus pain relief, anti-inflammatories etc.
i have found being hit with severe A/P at 10yrs has actually made me a stronger and more empathetic person. i began a career in nursing, but kept failing chemistry, so switched and ended up nursing my way thru my teaching degree. i was in oncology/palliative care for 5 years. i have problems with my meds, esp Xanax- i used to take it far more than what was prescribed as a coping mechanism, and i liked the feeling, so now i pick up 1 weeks worth at a time in a 'webster' pack, from my local chemist. im great at numbing reality which is a terrible thing, however the webster pack stops me from messing with the Xanax dosage. anything that numbs the pain is good (except alcohol, never liked it). doing my best to get back on track and eliminate the additional 'self medicating'. its just such a long term habit.
i still struggle to work full time and my agoraphobia is limiting but im taking baby steps. im also on an excellent diet, trying to shed my 'zoloft' fat, as i nicknamed it. i am 5'11 and used to weigh 60kg. then they changed me to Zoloft, whipped out my gall bladder, and bam! i put on nearly 30kg in 3 months. i got dumped for being fat (superficial jerk...) and my body image has taken a beating. i was always the popular life of the party, but my weight gain turned me into a hermit, as insensitive friends have made remarks and comments about me 'letting myself go'. im still the same person! just in a bigger body- dont they think i cant see the difference? i dont need to be reminded.
anyway, life is a struggle, but life is worth it. all things work together for good. my faith has kept me sane.
'He heals the broken hearted and binds up their wounds.' (Psalm 147:3)
Chronic Fatigue, Fibromyalgia, TMJ disorder, Endometriosis, Polycystic Ovaries, Chronic ear/nose/throat infections, Panic Disorder, Reactive Arthritis, Agoraphobia, Migraines, GERD, Anaemia, Sinusitis, Chronically perforated eardrums, Pinched Nerves, IBS, Tachycardia, Allergies, Insomnia, Trichotilomania, Glandular Fever, Bursitis, Encapsulitis, Seasonal Mood Disorder, Mild OCD.
Meds: Zoloft 150mg. Xanax 4mg. Nexium. Celebrex. Mobic. Panadeine Forte. Digesic.
Multiple surgeries- I bear the scars of my poor physical health.
Age:28. First diagnosed at 14. Proud Aussie. XX.