Thanks for the replies. It's been comforting to know everyone is here. :)
Well, it's Thursday night and I have gone to work every single day this week! I plan on going tomorrow also.
The class I have taught since Tuesday is an ELL class. That's "English Language Learners"...just in case you didn't know. (I didn't know until recently myself!) Anyhow, these kids really needed a reliable sub and I have done a good job with them. I heard they ran off a couple of subs earlier this year, but they have given me no trouble. One kid is a bit of a "skunk" though...LOL. I bet he keeps his mom busy!
I'm still trying to get stuff ready the night before. That's helping. And I just have been having the mindset of "Yes, you ARE going to work!". I've actually had quite a sore throat these last couple of days, but I've gone anyway. I just took some Advil and drank some water.
I think this anxiety is a confidence thing. Once I go to work for a few weeks, then I know I can and will be more confident. Of course, I can still miss in a true emergency...that happens to everyone. But that should be few and far between, not common.
I have to share something nice that happened to me today. The school I am working at is a school where I taught for 12 weeks last year when a woman had a baby. One of the teachers I worked next door to saw me today and she said "Hey, are you going to come and get a regular job here next year? I really like you and want you to work here!" I told her thank you and that her comment made my day. I don't know that I will ever be reliable enough to work a regular job but it was nice to feel wanted. I do know I am a good enough teacher. The kids always respond well, behave, and I KNOW they learn a lot. There's a good feeling to the day.
I'm still having a touch of driving anxiety but I'm driving and facing it.
I have a week off for Thanksgiving. The week after I am taking Monday off for guests and I have jobs for Wed and Thurs. Hopefully, someone will need me on Tues and Friday. Dear God, just not Kindergarten!
hugs to all,
so sorry to hear about your Crohn's. My 17 year old son has 2 young friends with it and it has been terrible. You are truly courageous.