Its 4.30am here in sydney- i should be peaceful in the land of nod
i woke at 3am with a stabbing pain in my left eye and as soon as i opened my eye, tears just poured out of it, and the bone around the eye socket is swollen and feels bruised. my eye is red, irritated and basically sealed shut. my head is pounding. i took some painkillers and tried to go back to sleep, but to no avail- im typing with one eye which is not as easy as i thought it would be- i just called in sick for work and finished typing up my lesson plans and emailing them to the school for the substitute. i hate not being able to teach. my kids tend to act up big time for subs and dont take them seriously, and basically torture them. its like sending daniel into the lions den! these kids have behavioural and learning disorders and will muck up as soon as they see im not there- even the seniors.
i went and woke mum up and showed her- she is a nurse who after waking, grunted that it looked 'hideous'. my awesome mum is not a 4 in the morning person!
i really want to sleep. i want the pain to go away. i dont want the principal to be fed up with me for not working today- i always feel so so so guilty- but i honestly wasnt planning on waking up at 3am with a horrible exploding eyeball (did you enjoy that visual? he he he he)
li just wish life was more straight forward- i take one step forward and my health takes 2 gigantic leaps back. *sigh*
the eye infection thing is actually related to my totally dysfucntional, barely working and highly compromised immune system. it attacks the ocular nerve and my immune system isnt strong enough to fight it off.
im so over it!
thankyou for letting me do a 4am rant and rave- i knew this was where i wanted to be as soon as i had finished my lessons.
much love to you, stupid painkillers NOT helping,
'He heals the broken hearted and binds up their wounds.' (Psalm 147:3)
Chronic Fatigue, Fibromyalgia, TMJ disorder, Endometriosis, Polycystic Ovaries, Chronic ear/nose/throat infections, Panic Disorder, Reactive Arthritis, Agoraphobia, Anemia, Sinusitis, IBS, Tachycardia, Allergies, Insomnia, Chemical/Noise/Light sensitivity, Trichotilomania, Glandular Fever, Seasonal Mood Disorder, Mild OCD.
Meds: Zoloft 150mg. Xanax 4mg. Celebrex. Mobic. Panadeine Forte. Digesic.
Multiple surgeries- I bear the scars of my poor physical health.
Age:28. First diagnosed at 14. Proud Aussie.