I called in sick for work today, at 5am. its cold, its raining heavily and my fibro is flaring up badly. my sinuses are also infected and i have ruptured eardrums. i got up, typed up my lessons and emailed them to the school- when i told my parents i was staying home, they guilt tripped me- mum, who is a nurse, claimed that i "look fine" and should have gone. dad basically said "i expect this from you" as if i call in sick all the time. ive been cut back to 2 days a wk next yr, and my parents think its because im unreliable- when in fact, 5 other teachers had their workload cut back due to budget cuts.
i hate feeling unsupported, being made to feel guilty. i would move back out in a heartbeat, but cant afford to. they are good parents and they mean well and have the best intentions, they just think i dont take my job seriously, which i do. my stomach is in knots, as mum remarked that they might take my 2 days off me next yr and give them to someone else- this shouldnt happen, but now im all "what if?" because im broke paying back my student loans, credit cards and medical bills.
i just want financial stability and financial independance. i try so hard to so the right thing and it always backfires.
\needed to unoad,
'He heals the broken hearted and binds up their wounds.' (Psalm 147:3)
Panic Disorder, Agoraphobia, CFS, Fibromyalgia, TMJ disorder, Endometriosis, PCOD, Chronic E.N.T infections, Reactive Arthritis, GERD, Sinusitis, IBS, Allergies, Glandular fever, Migraines, Anemia, Chemical/Noise/Light sensitivity, Trichotilomania, PTSD, Seasonal Mood Disorder, OCD, Benign Vertigo, Impaired immune system. Tachycardia, tinnitus, low clotting factor= bruising. Tendonitis, Bursitis.
Meds: Zoloft 150mg. Xanax 4mg. Celebrex. Mobic. Panadeine Forte. Digesic.
Multiple surgeries- I bear the scars of my poor physical health.
Age:28. First diagnosed at 14. Proud Aussie.