even though i know ive locked the back door, i will get up out of bed 5 times to check it. even though i KNOW ive switched the oven off, i get up and check it.
i CANNOT go to bed unless i have laid out my clothes for the next day. it can take me up to 2hrs to decide what to wear- (funnily i always end up in jeans and a rocking good t-shirt.) i get physically anxious if my clothes arent sorted for the next day and i really do get wound up about it. i have called in sick to work because i couldnt cope with finding something to wear.
i hoard stuff. i say the same prayer every single night because if i dont, something bad will happen. i compulsively pull my hair out- its a condition known as Trichotilomania. its more under control now, you would never know that i used to have bald patches where i had torn out handfuls of hair.
when i was younger i used to get up minimum 5 times a nigt to check that my parents were breathing. this lasted for years. but the hair pulling is by far the worst symptom of my OCD.
when i go to bed at night, i start to worry that my bladder may be full (even though i dont feel the need to go) so i get up and pee at least 3 times after ive settled in for the night, so i dont have to get up during the night.
even though my room is a disaster zone, i am an artist, (art & english teacher) and i need symmetry. i cannot handle things being crooked, out of line etc. it agitates me.
'He heals the broken hearted and binds up their wounds.' (Psalm 147:3)
Panic Disorder, Agoraphobia, CFS, Fibromyalgia, TMJ disorder, Endometriosis, PCOD, Chronic E.N.T infections, Reactive Arthritis, GERD, Sinusitis, IBS, Allergies, Glandular fever, Migraines, Anemia, Chemical/Noise/Light sensitivity, Trichotilomania, PTSD, Seasonal Mood Disorder, OCD, Benign Vertigo, Impaired immune system. Tachycardia, tinnitus, low clotting factor= bruising. Tendonitis, Bursitis.
Meds: Zoloft 150mg. Xanax 4mg. Celebrex. Mobic. Panadeine Forte. Digesic.
Multiple surgeries- I bear the scars of my poor physical health.
Age:28. First diagnosed at 14. Proud Aussie.
Post Edited (Mazfire) : 12/24/2008 4:55:43 AM (GMT-7)