Posted Today 11:00 AM (GMT -6) by YaGirlC
"Warpy/Scary" Thoughts and O.C.D.
Are they one and the same? I've never really seen a distinction between the two, so I am just wondering if 'warpy/scary' thoughts are a symptom of O.C.D., or is just a different issue altogether?
I have been told that I have 'O.C.D. tendancies' by my therapist, and he has mentioned medication as a possible route for action (if I could ever get over my medication fears, of course), but I have never been diagnosed by a doctor, per se, with O.C.D.
Both of my sisters have, and were treated, with O.C.D. and Trichotillomania (sp?). So there is a definite, remarkable family history. However, I was looking up the 'classic' symptoms of O.C.D., and I don't really fit much of them, anymore, if ever.
I mostly suffer from the 'warpy/scary' thoughts. I do have some number rituals that I practice, but it happens quite randomly. Some days it will be more pronounced than others. I don't have any 'cleaning' compulsions, that is, unless I just got done cleaning, then I do tend to be a bit obsessive with it. But the cleaning phases don't last very long, lol. Maybe a few weeks at a time or something. I just get tired of cleaning up every 2 seconds from the kids! Then I give up and when the toys are to the point of basically covering the floor, then I'll start the cleaning phase again, until I grow weary of spending hours going behind the kids every last move (when I am in the 'cleaning' phase, I don't let take out more than 1 or 2 toys at a time; it drives me nuts!).
I am kinda like that with the dishes as well. When I am in the cleaning phase, I cannot stand seeing one dish in the sink. But then I get frustrated after a few weeks, and just give up until there is a sink-full of dishes.
I don't have any contamination issues. I don't have much compulsions in regards to checking locks, ovens, etc.
I do have very obsessive thoughts about dying and going to Hell. 'Repentance' of some kind is always on my mind. It is a daily thought that runs through my mind ("what if I die and am not good enough?").
Just wondering if 'warpy/scary' thoughts is a symptom of O.C.D., or can be a totally separate issue or what?
The warpy/scary thoughts DO make me follow through compulsions, but since the compulsions are based on the thoughts, they are random in nature (random not to be confused with frequency, just the nature of the compulsion).
Mommy to 4 kids, ages 5 and under. Yep, I'm crazy. In more than one way!