Hello, and I am so sorry you are in pain. You asked "but now what do i do with the memories of us happy together, knowing that they were a lie? " When you were with him you were not a lie just like when you love anyone and lose them The good times will still good times.
i totally agree with Kitt- those memories werent lies, you can hold on to them. remember the good times. granted, he could have handled the break-up in a more mature way, but maybe you need to try and look at it from his point- he most likely went through a very difficult time in coming to terms with his sexuality- and maybe he was afraid of hurting you even more-
im sorry you are going through a rough patch, i am sorry as this must be so confusing, but please dont let it destroy any positive memories from your past- also-focus on the future.
'He heals the broken hearted and binds up their wounds.' (Psalm 147:3)
Panic Disorder, Agoraphobia, CFS, Fibromyalgia, TMJ disorder, Endometriosis, PCOD, Chronic E.N.T infections, Reactive Arthritis, GERD, Sinusitis, IBS, Allergies, Glandular fever, Migraines, Anemia, Chemical/Noise/Light sensitivity, Trichotilomania, PTSD, Seasonal Mood Disorder, OCD, Benign Vertigo, Impaired immune system. Tachycardia, tinnitus, low clotting factor= bruising. Tendonitis, Bursitis.
Meds: Zoloft 150mg. Xanax 4mg. Celebrex. Mobic. Panadeine Forte. Digesic.
Multiple surgeries- I bear the scars of my poor physical health.
Age:28. First diagnosed at 14. Proud Aussie.