I haven't been here for awhile - miss you guys.
My issue is that my savings is just about drained. I am grateful and thankful to have friends who
plan to convert their garage into a studio for me and my cats in exchange for low rent and free
pet-sitting - it's just that I've been trying to find a job for over a year now and have had no
success - I'm very scared and highly anxious/panicky. My doc upped my Klonapin to 3mg/day
on top of the Lexapro and Trazodone I take, but each time I transfer money from my savings
to checking and realize I have about 2 months left worth of money, I feel that panicky feeling
for days. My stomach in knots, heart beating faster - the Klonapin is probably helping, but it
doesn't stop the knots and fear. I'm a 23-year veteran Legal Secretary and have been applying
everywhere, Wal-Mart, Frito-Lay truck driver, anything and just nothing has come up yet.
I've been keeping my faith in God, just feel like that's a hypocritical statement since I get this
high anxiety/panic now. I have to know everything's going to come together the way it is
Just kind of needed to express my feelings of panic, fear and anxiety about what's been going
on with me for the past couple of months. I do feel blessed every day that I still have shelter,
food and clothing for me and my cats (excluding the clothing for the cats - they have their own
fur coats!!) heh
Thanks for listening. It's been a long time.