A man, lol! I've been divorced for two years and am trying to hit the dating scene again. Ughhhh......
i want a man too! but after a couple of long term abusive relationships, i am now super choosy. and ive built a wall around me to protect me from further pain. im 28, turning 29 and im terrified that i wont find the right man. 90% of my friends are happily married, some have kids, all have nice houses with mortgages and company cars- and then there's me: moved back home, teaching in a notoriously rough high school- single and jaded and cynical. i dont want to be alone! i want a hubby. but maybe my baggage and trust issues are holding me back. i dont look like an ogre, im smart, fun, creative- and then im anxious, lonely, sick, tired, angry- what a nice mix for some poor unsuspecting man!
I want a guy to value me for my intellect and personality- not how i look in a bikini. *sigh* i fear my ship has sailed and i am destined to be the crazy old spinster cat lady with 27 cats and newspapers that ive been collecting since the eighties piled up around me- i have to learn to love and accept myself before i can expect that from someone else- make sense? I gotta believe that God has it in His hands and that He has a plan, cos i sure as hell dont!
and as for the dating scene? i have NO idea how to get back into that nightmare! is it too much to expect the right guy to find me, decides he likes me, then pursue me, without all the 'dating' drama? apparently its too much to ask.
its enough to send one batty, i tells ya!! XX
'He heals the broken hearted and binds up their wounds.' (Psalm 147:3)
Panic Disorder, Agoraphobia, CFS, Fibromyalgia, TMJ disorder, Endometriosis, PCOD, Chronic E.N.T infections, Reactive Arthritis, GERD, Sinusitis, IBS, Allergies, Glandular fever, Migraines, Anemia, Chemical/Noise/Light sensitivity, Trichotilomania, PTSD, Seasonal Mood Disorder, OCD, Benign Vertigo, Impaired immune system. Tachycardia, tinnitus, low clotting factor= bruising. Tendonitis, Bursitis.
Meds: Zoloft 150mg. Xanax 4mg. Celebrex. Mobic. Panadeine Forte. Digesic.
Multiple surgeries- I bear the scars of my poor physical health.
Age:28. First diagnosed at 14. Proud Aussie.