So im 28 and im very single. I have had to move back home to live as i cant afford to rent. after surgery to remove my gall bladder as well as being put on Zoloft, i gained 30kgs in 3 months. My then boyfriend dumped me for being 'fat, ugly, not sexy anymore'. I am 6ft tall and until the age of 22 i was always underweight and used to get hassled about my lankiness.
I never lacked boyfriends- when i was skinny and confident i stayed in 3 long term relationships, all of which had elements of abuse and left me unhappy.
As soon as i stacked the weight on, all male interest in me disappeared. ive always been a tomboy, and been 'one of the boys' but not to the extent where no one would date me.
I have tried to diet- but the combo of AP meds and my Fibro and PCOS make it very hard to shift weight. I have come to hate what i see in the mirror and hate the body i am trapped in.
My friends are all married with cute kids and white picket fences and mortgages and company cars and they have their own lives. and though they try to include me, im acutely aware that i am the odd one out.
I live in a fairly rural district that is lacking quality men that meet my criteria (christian, non alcohol or drugs etc) and my agoraphobia prevents me from going further afield too often, so i dont meet new guys very often. and when i do, i feel like they are looking at me like im shrek. without the green skin.
is this all i have to look forward too? a life of solitude and boredom? i want someone to accept me for ME. i just want God to place someone in my path who is capable of accepting me and loving me, flaws and all.
is that too much to ask? im starting to freak cos im nearly 29 and as far as i can tell, the whole 'marriage' ship seems to have sailed. sorry for being negative, just not feeling ultra loved or special right now.
'He heals the broken hearted and binds up their wounds.' (Psalm 147:3)
Panic Disorder, Agoraphobia, CFS, Fibromyalgia, TMJ disorder, Endometriosis, PCOD, Chronic E.N.T infections, Reactive Arthritis, GERD, Sinusitis, IBS, Allergies, Glandular fever, Migraines, Anemia, Chemical/Noise/Light sensitivity, Trichotilomania, PTSD, Seasonal Mood Disorder, OCD, Benign Vertigo, Impaired immune system. Tachycardia, tinnitus, low clotting factor= bruising. Tendonitis, Bursitis.
Meds: Zoloft 150mg. Xanax 4mg. Celebrex. Mobic. Panadeine Forte. Digesic.
Multiple surgeries- I bear the scars of my poor physical health.
Age:28. First diagnosed at 14. Proud Aussie.