Morning Family- yes i am acutely aware that i am 17hrs ahead... its blistering hot at the moment, we have locked ourselves in the house with the air-con on full tilt. we are also on bushfire alert
. its 43 degrees celcius here.
Anyway, after another sleepless night (too darn hot) i came up with today's question:
"Is there something you want to do, but your AP is holding you back?"
I know a part of me would like to travel and be more of a social butterfly, the way i used to be, but i feel trapped by my agoraphobia.
I would love to have the time and money to study even more and get my Masters in adolesant welfare, but the thought of leaving the security of my job and going back to school is quite nerve wracking.
I would also like to meet new guys- but my AP born insecurities stop me from doing this way too much.
I would love to live in a neat and ordrely environment, but my room is organised chaos- kinda like me at times.
I want to totally control my AP. not let IT control ME.
Now that i have recognised these things, maybe i can start working on them, one baby step at a time?
'He heals the broken hearted and binds up their wounds.' (Psalm 147:3)
Panic Disorder, Agoraphobia, CFS, Fibromyalgia, TMJ disorder, Endometriosis, PCOS, Chronic E.N.T infections, Reactive Arthritis, GERD, Sinusitis, IBS, Allergies, Glandular fever, Migraines, Anemia, Chemical/Noise/Light sensitivity, Trichotilomania, PTSD, Seasonal Mood Disorder, OCD, Benign Vertigo, Impaired immune system. Tachycardia, tinnitus, low clotting factor= bruising. Tendonitis, Bursitis.
Meds: Zoloft 150mg. Xanax 4mg. Celebrex. Mobic. Panadeine Forte. Digesic. Nexium.
Multiple surgeries- I bear the scars of my poor physical health.
Age:28. First diagnosed at 14. Proud Aussie.