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   Posted 1/12/2009 9:06 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi everyone,
    Some people get mad and punch walls when they are anxious, I just jump in the shower.  I don't know what is wrong with me.  I am so stressed I can't take it anymore.  I dont want to post the long drawn out story but I think Im going to have a meltdown very soon.  I can't take it anymore, sorry so short

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   Posted 1/12/2009 9:54 PM (GMT -6)   
Now is the time to write or paint
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   Posted 1/12/2009 10:09 PM (GMT -6)   
Hey Gabby,

I think that taking a shower sounds more healthy than all the anger. Sorry you are feeling so down right now. Are you seeing a doctor and have meds to help you out right now? If not I think you should make an appt. real soon. Some of these meds take a bit to get into the system and you should not put it off.

Sending warm thoughts and prayers to you :)
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   Posted 1/12/2009 11:21 PM (GMT -6)   
I'm sorry that you are having such a hard time right now.  If you feel up to sharing your troubles, I know that everyone here will be supportive and helpful.  Hang in there and let us know if you need help.

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   Posted 1/13/2009 1:39 AM (GMT -6)   

Hi Gabby,

If you are feeling really stressed out and feel like you are going to have a meltdown, please tell someone close to you. It's really important to have someone who can keep an eye on you during this time okay? I would hate to see anything happen to you.

If the showers are giving you some comfort and solace, then embrace the fact that you smell great..it's only a harmful behaviour if it interrupts your quality of life, as far as coping skills go..this isn't too bad.

Do you have any idea what has caused this episode of high anxiety? I don't mean to pry, I just want to help. Please email me if you need to talk privately, and please stay safe. If things get "too much" call someone for help.

I wish you all the best,


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   Posted 1/13/2009 6:19 AM (GMT -6)   
I have to agree with the art, wrighting, drawing or painting....Get it all out!  When I was at my worst I did the most amazing drawings...mainly abstract lead pencil drawings. Now that I have calmed down I look back at amazement...Wow I could do some amazing things in that crazy tense or lost mood I was in. I have tried since and I cant draw anything...Nothing. I was unable to put my feelings into words so i put it into a drawing and that was my journal...a visual one. I do find it hard to look back at it now but it helped me so much at the time. Try it. I dont think u have anything to loose.  gillxx

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   Posted 1/13/2009 8:15 AM (GMT -6)   
Journaling can be very helpful. I've found that when I don't have another outlet for my feelings that just writing it all down helps enormously. It doesn't even have to be a journal... sometimes I just need a pen and piece of paper and I just write it all down as fast as I can. It's a way to get the feelings out, see them in a tangible form, and deal with them that way.
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   Posted 1/13/2009 8:17 AM (GMT -6)   
hi gabby,

you've gotten some really wonderful advice here, but i did want to pop in and say that under periods of extremely high anxiety, i tend to take lots of showers, too. so you're not alone there.

i am sorry you're having such a rough time right now. please remember to breathe and remind yourself that the anxiety will pass eventually. and please remember that we are all here to support you.

love and hugs

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some momentary awarenewss comes as an unexpected visitor.
welcome and entertain them all!
even if they're a crowd of sorrows, who violently sweep your house empty of its furniture,still, treat each guest honorably
he may be clearing you out for some new delight.

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   Posted 1/13/2009 8:35 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi all
    Thank u so much for your replies.  I agree, writing is an excelent way to get it all out.  I'm actually a musician and sat down and played my piano last night.  What is bothering me the most right now is....MONEY.  I can't stand is much longer.  I have to go back to school because I am 27 and live at home, and it is going to cost me 12,000 dollars to do this, which I dont have.  And the thought of having to be in debt that much money and paying it all back within the next 10 years does not thrill me.  I feel as though I am in bondage to money for the rest of my life.  I go to school and get a job just so I can pay back the money it cost me to get a job in the first place.  That makes no sense to me.  But what can I do?  I have to have a career.  So that is stressing me the most.
     Then there is my health.  I have reflux disease, which cant be controlled by diets or meds.   Ive tried everything, to make a long story short.  I am suffering.
      And then there is this other factor.  Well, I'll try to explain.  I have been single for 7 years.  Praying for the right one to come into my life.  Well, last week I met this wonderful guy.  And u know how that goes.  You get all excited cause you think he's the one, and then you doubt it, and then you dont know what to do cause u dont want to waste your time and get hurt.  So that is were I am at right now, a big pile of confusion.  I am so confused about everything.  Its so hard to get into details but I was really angry last night cause I feel like my mind is being played games with again.  Like what always happens to me.  I think I have had it with guys. 
      So last night i just started to have this huge anxiety attack, jumped in the shower, helped a lot.  I hate this.  Why does life have to be like this? What is wrong with me?  I feel so stupid and like such a waste.  I really just wish something would make sense to me. 
Thank u all for reading this, sorry to bother u with my problems I just really lost ti last night

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   Posted 1/13/2009 9:38 AM (GMT -6)   

Gabby my friend,

Slow down the thinking, it feels to me like your mind is racing. You going around in a big circle so step out of the circle and give your self some breathing space.

Focus on an object of interest in your minds eye...basically meditation. As much as the streaming thoughts enter, push them away from concentrating on the object of interest..do with eyes closes...practice when going to bed it might be easier to focus on during your relaxing hours!
Why must you go back to school, is there no other option?
Also Gabby,try to watch closely what you eat. Sugars and caffeine can have that type of side-effect.  Chocolate, candy, coffee products, sodas, etc.
I am right here to support you so take care and  you will make it through this rough patch.
Great ideas by the members who have posted to you.


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   Posted 1/13/2009 9:58 AM (GMT -6)   
Gabby just wanted to send out (((GIANT HUGS))) to you. I agree with Skitt, try to kick the stinking thinking to the curb. I also wonder if maybe you might need to get your meds adjusted. I take Proton Pump inhibitors and have found in the past that sometimes I have to either change my meds or up them as my body becomes immune to them. I hope things look up for you soon.

Good luck,
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   Posted 1/13/2009 5:33 PM (GMT -6)   

Sending you some healing thoughts for your racing mind my friend :) We all have that problem on here. . . Most of us creative and professional types are that way :) There is so many right now worrying about money also, in fact, we started a thread a few pages back on the A/P forum on how we are dealing with the stress about money and ways to deal with that. You should have a look at it.

As far as relationships go, I am no love guru. . . Some of us wait a lifetime for the right person to come along and what I did was leave it in the hands of God. . . It took me into my early thirties for me to love myself enough to be able to truly love and trust somebody with my heart like that. It is not easy, but when you meet the one it will be so worth it :)

Take care and have a wonderful day! . . . Your Bro . . . Sam :)
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