Will I ever feel better?

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   Posted 1/13/2009 3:57 PM (GMT -6)   
I am 22 years old and suffered on and off with anxiety/depression since I was a teenager, but it's never been so bad that I needed meds. One night I got home from work and started having an intense panic attack, it came out of nowhere. I seriously thought I was going to die. I went to the hospital and they gave me ativan, it didn't do much for me, but make me feel a little loopy. 3 weeks later I found out that I was 6 weeks pregnant, so I know this pregnancy has probably caused a raise in hormones making me feel anxious. I just want my life back! I have a 22 month old and I can't even play with her! I am always panicky, dizzy, I just want to lay down and sleep all day because otherwise I'm having a panic attack. I have panic attacks daily. My dr finally prescribed me zoloft and I've been taking it since Sunday. I am so scared that I'm never going to feel better, that I'm always going to feel this way. I'm scared that I'm going to have a heart attack from all the stress that I feel. I also don't always want to be on meds for the rest of my life. I just wish I could be happy with my life the way it is. If anyone has any uplifting messages please send them my way. I'm terrified that I'm just going to have to learn to live this way. It's really hurting my marriage!

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   Posted 1/13/2009 4:06 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi Mandalou_86 and welcome to the best anxiety/panic board out there. I am so sorry you are having such as hard time. I think that if you give the Zoloft a little time, things will start to quiet down. These types of meds usually take some time to kick in. I also think if the pregnancy hormones are causing the anxiety, that hopefully once you get past the first trimester things will quiet down there too.

With being pregnant right now I think your med choices are going to be limited. Not sure if you could take Xanax or not. That is what I use to help quiet my anxiety down when it ramps up. I like it because it is fast acting and quiets things down fast.

You will feel better, its just unfortunately going to take time for the meds to kick in. Come here and vent, ask questions, anything. We are always here for you.

God Bless,
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   Posted 1/13/2009 4:06 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi Mandalou,

I'm sorry to hear how you've been feeling. Like you, I have also been worried about heart attack from the stress and anxiety, I just want to reassure you that I have spoken to my doctor about this and he said it is just anxiety and there is no need to worry. I know at times it is easier said than done when irrational thoughts are going around in your mind but it is definitely something to grasp onto during those tough times. I like you have recently been prescribed medication from the doctor and don't want to be on it for life, the way I am trying to see it at the moment is it will assist in helping me get the tools to better manage this and as I get better at managing it then I can be slowly weaned off. You will get there! My thoughts are with you and congrats on your pregnancy by the way!

Karen xo

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   Posted 1/13/2009 4:19 PM (GMT -6)   
just know that everything passes! i was just having a pretty bad panic attack and i was able to distract myself and get myself out of it. and guess what - i'm still here!! stay positive, there's always calm after the storm!

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   Posted 1/13/2009 5:22 PM (GMT -6)   
Everything said above is true, you will feel better in time. When you have a bad panic attack you generally tend to suffer bad anticipatory anxiety about having another. I would actually take the panic attacks if it didn't mean I had to endure two to three weeks of bad anxiety after the fact. It can make you feel so darned awful and you just want it to stop as soon as possible, but it makes time feel like it's slowing down.

Every time I finally get through a panic/anxiety episode, I realize it's only been about ten to twelve days since I had the original panic attack, but because of anticipatory anxiety, it's felt like a month. I know it feels awful now but it WILL pass. No matter how much you want to stay in bed, make sure you get up and give yourself as many distractions as possible.

Hang in there!

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   Posted 1/13/2009 5:36 PM (GMT -6)   

Im on Zoloft and it works quite well for me, but it took up to 6 weeks to start working properly, so you may have to wait a little while, but it is worth it.

Hang in there and keep us posted,

Maz XX

p.s it DOES get better. it may never be perfect or completely gone, but i swear it does get better. its just hard to see that when you are in the panic pit of despair. also, have you suffered from post natal depression at all?

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   Posted 1/13/2009 5:37 PM (GMT -6)   

Hi mandalou_86

Welcome to HealingWell and know that you are going to be OK. I am Kitt and I have had A &  P and Depression for 26 years......I have learned alot over the years and one of those is I would not die from A & P or stress as my heart is healthy.

So drop kick those thoughts to the curb.  Give your medication a chance to work.  The AD meds do take time to kick in and some of the side effects to begin with may be increase in anxiety. It may take up to 4-6 weeks for the med's full effect to kick in.

Hopefully you will be able to get into therapy to learn how to deal with the anxiety and once you have you will come off the med but I am not a professional so please work closely with your physician.

Again a warm welcome to HealingWell.

Gentle Hugs.


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   Posted 1/13/2009 7:03 PM (GMT -6)   
Hey Mandalou_86 :)

Just wanted to say hello and let you know that you have come to a great place for a peer support group. After all the great advice I don't have much to add except that I think therapy is a viable option to help you and your family. Along with the great techniques you can learn at the top of our page under title of Anxiety-Panic Resouces, you will start feeling better. Like anything else in life though, it will not happen overnight, but is well worth the time spent :)

Go see your doc and tell him/her how you are feeling. I hope you can find a balance in you life and I'm sending you healing thoughts :)

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   Posted 1/13/2009 10:20 PM (GMT -6)   
hi mandalou_86, we have all been there on thois forum. panic attacks do pass so dont worry. what i do when i get them is i control my breathing slow deep breaths. give the meds some time to kick in and concentrate on the now. when you get better you can then think about getting off the meds.

everyday is a struggle for me so dont think you are alone.

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Date Joined Sep 2005
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   Posted 1/16/2009 4:10 AM (GMT -6)   
I'll add in with the others just to say how much i feel for you - its horrible to go through. Poor you. A good way to look at it, is not to necessarily try to 'think positive' which can be hard when youre feeling so bad (i get really annoyed with people cheerily saying "oh look on the bright side" when im feeling rubbish grrrr) , but to just try to be PATIENT and accept the way you feel for the moment. That way you dont add 'fear to the fear' Do trust what everyone says, that it will pass - its completely true. I read a book called "Self help for your nerves" by claire weeks - i found it in a local charity shop and i reckon it saved me - certainly did more for me than meds. So thats one to try too.

I was exactly like you are for a time ( i was 25) - i couldnt go out, was too dizzy to walk, couldnt think straight, scary thoughts - the works. That intense period lasted 2 months at the most. I mean, yeah i had little relapses and still do, but nowadays im so used to them its almost more like a bit of an irritation like having a cold or something, and it doesnt affect my daily life (truly - AT ALL, i run workshops in schools where i stand and talk infront of loads of people!) . so what im saying with that i guess is dont let it freak you out when people say "ive had panic disorder for 25 years" It doesnt mean they always feel lke you do now - most of the time they probably feel fine, but just have little set-backs every so often!

Oh and another poster said force yourself to get out of bed. True. If i do that i end up wallowing and feeling worse. Best thing is something physical but dull - try painting a room in your house or sanding down a chair or somehting. (well, um.. it worked for me ;) )
Good luck, we are all here for you - and congrats on the baby!
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Post Edited (Hazed) : 1/16/2009 2:16:21 AM (GMT-7)

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