I'm really just scratching the surface lately on my anxiety. I've always experienced tension, migranes and moments of extreme panic in places that lack familiarity, public spaces and when I'm in uncomfortable situations from my earliest childhood.
However until just recently I didn't have a name for what I was experiencing and now that I finally realized I'm not crazy, that there is a name for what I have experienced all my life I'm at a loss - How did I live 20 years without getting treatment? It's true that since I developed Fibro I've had more symptoms to my anxiety (light and sound sensitivities) which is the only reason why I talked to my doctor about
it and now that I realize that I have anxiety, and that I've been experiencing it for as long as I can remember, I feel a sort of relief but dispair... if I had gotten treatment earlier maybe my life would have gone a little different... I just am glad that I finally have an answer... the diagnosis of anxiety makes my whole life, my health issues, all make sense.
But now I feel misunderstood, even by myself - it's hard to wrap my brain around that I've been struggling on my own for so long and now that I'm finally am getting treatment I'm thankful but resistant at the same time.
I just feel alone
Diagnosed with Fibro - October 2008
Gabapentin 300mg/Paroxetine 40mg/Armitriptyline 40mg to help me sleep and anxiety
Lorazepan... when things get real bad.
And I'm not fond of people who don't label pill bottles.