I just found this site today. Been reading everyone's posts and comments for the last few hours. Great great resource!
I'm 30 f. Live in Alaska. Single mother with 2 kids. I have been suffering from panic attacks off and on for the last 2 years. I can first recall it after a dental visit and the numbing stuff wore off into my blood stream. Crazy electrial current, dizzy/faint, couldn't breathe, rapid heart beat... worst feeling ever. After it happened the first time, it started happening more and more. I have always been mildly depressed in the winter months, and have always been a hyper sensitive person. However, its nothing like social anxiety. I'm shining bright in a room full of 100 (love to be on stage type thing) and then with one on one's... I'm not so great.
I've seen a few doctors. Tried Lexapro and Cymbalta. 1 dose sent me straight to the floor/bathroom. First thing my body does is expell any and all "stuff" anyway it can.
I've tried Buspar, it didn't do a thing.
I've tried Xanax. Works mildly. No family doctor will give me more than a few at a time. I can't afford a psychatrist, insurance doesn't cover that!!!! I google anything I take, and wind up scaring myself half to death with personal stories.
What I do take nightly is Ambien. It calms me down, eases my mind into sleep. I can't take anything new without severe adverse reactions.
I don't want to take it forever... it seems like it's been forever. I hide it from my BF who is extreamly sympathetic to my issues, but doesn't understand them at all.
So what I'm rableming on is... I get anxiety at night. When everythign is done and calm.
OR, I get it at work when I'm not busy. My body goes into over drive and I wind up in the bathroom for hours, sometimes days. I missed more than 2 weeks of work last month! I have had numerous breakdowns that my BF see's and he's so confused. How can I explain to a man who's wonderful and has all the potential of a husband and step father how emotionally or mentally messed up I am? What's wrong with my body or mind that it freaks out for no apparent reason?
Ok, thanks for reading. I'll be here often.