I, know what mental and emotional suffering is, I had depression all my life. I now live with the daily torment of anxiety, and so far, nothing stops it, although meds help some.
Worrying, or just thinking about
anything insignificant will raise my anxiety. I don't sleep much, and am usually on edge. I cannot enjoy life, I am afraid to be away from my father , (he is elderly) when he is in his bed, and I awaken 2 AM or earlier. He has tried to relax me with backrubs, and it helps, but the feeling in my stomach won't go away. It's like having a constant state of adrenaline. This seemed to have started after my 2 hernia surgeries last month.
Since I am among the suffering, I now know what it's like to want help but cannot get it. It's like having cancer, and the pain in unbearable, but the Docs won't give you anything effective for the pain. More or or less trying to extinguish a volcano with a squirt-gun.
So, what do we do? Do we have to continue living in torment? And why? Why can't we get what we need to get better?
I would rather be a catatonic person with no awareness.
Post Edited (markofkane) : 1/16/2009 6:42:30 AM (GMT-7)