Angst fell asleep first, leaving Apanik to recount the day's events. Why could their parents not see what was happening to their children? Apanik tried to remember the last time she had been truly happy and free from the burden of anxiety. she thinks and thinks, but fear has dominated her life for so long that her head only remembers the bad.
Apanik rolls over and looks at Angst- he is snoring gently, she watches his chest rise and fall- she has always been scared of family members dying in their sleep, even the young ones. you could say she obsesses about it. But its ok, Angst is very much alive- and sleeping peacefully. Or is he?
Shortly after falling asleep, Angst began dreaming. He dreamt that he was on the run from something dark, something depressing- but he couldnt put a face to it. He dreamt that he is a child again, however he is still being chased by a dark and sorrowful force. If only Angst knew it- he was running away from anxiety. and in his mind, this was a very dark thing.
He wakes up and worries- mostly about what would happen to Apanik if he wasnt around. she relied on him so heavily. dont get me wrong, he doesnt mind- he kinda enjoys being the protective brother- but he has no one to do the same for him. feeling hungry, Angst went for the bag with the food- only to find that possums had had a field day with what little supplies they had left.
Now they were in the middle of nowhere- or somewhere CLOSE to the middle of nowhere, and they no longer had food. How can this be remedied? the twins are stubborn and proud, as well as anxious- they will never go back home to the parents that choose to take their issues lightly. now they are trapped- no food and minimal drinking water.
Angst woke Apanik and gently, calmly explained the situation. Apanik froze- she was out of her comfort zone, and although she felt protected by Angst, she could see the anxiety in his eyes. after packing up camp, they agreed to thumb their way at the nearest highway.
It felt like they walked all day just to get to a main road- they were both sunburnt, tired and thirsty. Angst stuck his thumb out, but car after car whizzed past, not giving the twins a second look or the time of day. However a generous, big bellied truck driver pulled over- he opened the passenger door and leaned over. "where are you kids headed?" he asked. Apanik looked at Angst as he tried to make a decision. Finally, Angst spoke; "sir- we are going wherever you are going. we have no plan."
The semi driver introduced himself as Red, and watched as the twins clambered up the steps to the cabin of the big rig. they seemed nervous, edgy, restless- they also were not particularly talkative. Red decided not to push them for information- he assumed they would tell him when they felt like it. "I hope no one is missing these kids" he thought to himself. but he neednt have worried- no one was missing the twins...............
'He heals the broken hearted and binds up their wounds.' (Psalm 147:3)
Panic Disorder, Agoraphobia, CFS, Fibromyalgia, Chronic Sinusitis, TMJ disorder, Endometriosis, PCOS, Chronic E.N.T and Upper respiratory tract infections, Reactive Arthritis, GERD, IBS, Glandular fever, Migraines, Anemia, Chemical/Noise/Light sensitivity, Trichotilomania, PTSD, Seasonal Mood Disorder, OCD, Benign Vertigo, Impaired immune system. Tachycardia, tinnitus, low clotting factor= bruising. Tendonitis, Bursitis.
Meds: Zoloft 150mg. Xanax 4mg. Celebrex. Mobic. Panadeine Forte. Digesic. Nexium. Phenergan.
Multiple surgeries- I bear the scars of my poor physical health.
Age:28. AP first DX @ 10. Fibro etc DX @14. Proud Aussie.