You are not a disappointment and I do hope you get sorted our with your doc. Have you every considered CBT or maybe seeing a therapist? I can change the way you are feeling right now for the better, like many of us members on HW!
I wish you the best and please keep your chin up :)
Much Love, Hugs, Peace & Comfort . . . Your Bro . . . Sam :)
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Not a professional. Seek your physician's advice before making changes to your meds or lifestyle.