Megs and all,
I am just kind of stuck right now. I love my sister and I know this is about her. Her surgery date is 2/16 so they were going to head out this morning to go home to North Dakota and return on the12th of February. I talked to her on the phone last night aroung 8:00 PM and she said they would be leaving at 7:00 AM this morning.
I called her on her cell phone this morning (that is all she uses) and it was not turned on so I did not think to much of that. about 10:00 she called and I said how far are you (10 hour drive) and she said we are home..................
I said you mean you have not left yet and she said "No, we came home last night and when I talked to you we were on our way. I did not tell you so you would not worry"
Whoaaaaaaaaaaaa, here is where I get angry as I want the right to decide if I should worry or not and I am not a baby. I am always being called and used when they need me but otherwise back to the on a need to know basis.
Am I over reacting? Yes I know I am but I would not have worried about them, I would have slept fine as they have driven the drive many times over my life time but often right on through Minneapolis without my knowldege as they were headed else where and did not have time to stop.
Oh boy...................I am hurt..............dang this stupid anxiety and depression.
This is what happens when the one sibling is raised seperate from the others, you feel like an outsider all you life.
Yesterday my niece said to me at lunch "You will probably be having house guests when Mom has her surgery as my hubby and daughter will be coming for the surgery"
They did the same thing to me when they got married on August 1st, asked me in front of everyone at the reception if their daughter could stay at our house while they were in Jamaica................I love the little girl and was glad to do it but to just hit me with it in front of an audience felt like I was ambushed. When they got back from Jamica they came to pick up their daughter and asked to all spend the night .
I have a very small house folks and a husband with Crohn's who has to have his meals and personal time on a schedule. We don't have an outhouse either.
OK, I vented. I guess after 6 months of this going on I have a right to vent.
Oh yes and one more thing..........when the check comes after we have ate at restaurant they just let it sit there and don't even look...................one lunch cost me $74.00. I now just lay down my share, usually more then my share, like 1/2 the bill. Now days that is nearly my whole months budget for me as I keep out $100.00 cash for myself for the little things that may come up. I am willing to go to McDonalds but nope, it has to be a nice resaturant as my sister does not want to stand in line. She could sit down and I will stand in line so then I might have money left over to buy that book I saw and have been wanting to get.
Oh dear, I sound so selfish and bitter. Off with my head.
Thanks for reading.
Kitt, Co-Moderator: Anxiety/Panic & Depression
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