Welcome to Healing Well. I found this site when I was recovering from a 60-day anxiety attack that put me in the hospital so out of it I only remember about an hour of a week long stay. So I can sure relate.
I am now on the therapeutic dose of Lamictal, I think 200 mg a day. It has not given me any problems, not sure it's doing any good.
My pdoc is very consistent about not wanting me on Xanax and Ativan, it was Zyprex that finally got rid of the anxiety. And now I only have to take it every 2 or 3 weeks, which is good because it makes me VERY HUNGRY!!!
Your thoughts of doing harm to your husband and yourself are not good. Get ye to a psychiatric doctor as soon as possible.
Know that I got better eventually, and you will too if you seek professional help. Best of luck to you - I know how difficult this time can be. I too wanted to do myself harm.
Bipolar, Anxiety Disorder, Rheumatoid Arthritis