When I have a fear of dying, I think of the worst things associated with it and it gets better. For example, when my heart skips beats and the thought of dying comes into mind, I remind myself that I believe in God. I remember heaven and how it is described in the Bible. This calms me down right away.
Also, when it comes to thinking about
leaving your kids...kids are resilient. They can get through almost anything. I'm sure you have loved ones that would make sure your kids are fine. Worrying about
leaving your kids only makes your life more frantic which affects your kid's lives.
You need to be on some sort of medication. I'm not a doctor, but it seems like you suffer often with scary thoughts. If you're not on an anti-depressant, I would speak to a therapist about
going on one. You deserve a happy life without scary thoughts!
Anxiety Disorder/Mitral Valve Prolapse
Prozac and Carvedilol