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   Posted 2/18/2009 7:19 PM (GMT -6)   
Happy Wednesday, Everyone!
There has been something weighing on my mind for the past week, so I'm going to vent it right here and get it off my chest so I can let it go.
about a week ago, my grandma noticed a lump on the side of her neck so she went to her doc. He told her he wasn't sure it was nothing to worry about it, and referred her to the rheumatologist, as she sees him regularly for some other problems. The rheumatologist promptly did an EKG and chest x-ray, EKG normal, chest x-ray showed what he thought to be pulmonary hypertension so he scheduled a chest CT the following day.
So the chest CT results came back and the doctor said there is a mass on one of my grandma's lungs. He has been collaborating with her general doc, and they scheduled her for a biopsy of the place on her neck (which was done today) and informed us it would take about a week for the results. So now we wait...and waiting is terribly hard for me and my grandma, especially. She also has A/P and after the initial finding of the lump she has already googled every imaginable lymph node and lung problems, willed all of her belongings to family members, and just been in a general state of's really starting to stress me out! Usually when either one of us is particularly anxious, we call and talk to the other one, but this past week and a half is driving me nuts! In a sense, it's keeping me occupied and my anxiety has not been flaring, but hers is clearly taking a toll on all of us...and now the "what ifs" are beginning. If something truly is wrong I'm not sure I could handle the stress of being a support system for her, continuing my education, working, and worrying about my alcoholic father who lives 5 hours away and is prone to hospitalization due to binges every few months.....AAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
whew. that felt good just to get it all out. i feel better already

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   Posted 2/18/2009 7:28 PM (GMT -6)   
Doesn't it feel good to vent?! I find that sometimes just posting here lifts a weight off of my shoulders, without being judged. I do hope everything turns out ok for your grandmother.....
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   Posted 2/18/2009 8:28 PM (GMT -6)   
Just calm down and try to take it little by little. I know it's hard but you did the best thing, (my opinion, of course), by venting in here to us. We are all willing to listen and be here for you. I'm sorry to hear about your grandmother but let's all think positively and hope things will turn out just fine. I will keep you and your grandmother in my thoughts.

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   Posted 2/18/2009 9:29 PM (GMT -6)   
Glad you got that off your chest my friend! I know we all need to vent sometimes to relieve all the stress :) I am very sorry to hear about your grandmother and I sure hope everything turns out for the best. You both are in my prayers and please to keep us posted on what happens!
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   Posted 2/18/2009 10:26 PM (GMT -6)   
hey everyone,

thanks so much for listening! i'm usually the person w/the advice and smile, as i try to remain cheerful MOST of time. it sure felt good to just get that off my mind and out into the open so i could let it go..i feel so much better having typed it out AND knowing that you all are here for support :)

yes sam, i certainly will come back w/an update as soon as we hear something. thanks for everyone's kind thoughts and words :)

hope you all have a great weekend! i'm off to visit my lush father that i spoke so fondly of in my post (he's on the wagon for now).
i will talk to everyone next week

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