Happy Wednesday, Everyone!
There has been something weighing on my mind for the past week, so I'm going to vent it right here and get it off my chest so I can let it go.
about a week ago, my grandma noticed a lump on the side of her neck so she went to her doc. He told her he wasn't sure it was nothing to worry about it, and referred her to the rheumatologist, as she sees him regularly for some other problems. The rheumatologist promptly did an EKG and chest x-ray, EKG normal, chest x-ray showed what he thought to be pulmonary hypertension so he scheduled a chest CT the following day.
So the chest CT results came back and the doctor said there is a mass on one of my grandma's lungs. He has been collaborating with her general doc, and they scheduled her for a biopsy of the place on her neck (which was done today) and informed us it would take about a week for the results. So now we wait...and waiting is terribly hard for me and my grandma, especially. She also has A/P and after the initial finding of the lump she has already googled every imaginable lymph node and lung problems, willed all of her belongings to family members, and just been in a general state of hysteria....it's really starting to stress me out! Usually when either one of us is particularly anxious, we call and talk to the other one, but this past week and a half is driving me nuts! In a sense, it's keeping me occupied and my anxiety has not been flaring, but hers is clearly taking a toll on all of us...and now the "what ifs" are beginning. If something truly is wrong I'm not sure I could handle the stress of being a support system for her, continuing my education, working, and worrying about my alcoholic father who lives 5 hours away and is prone to hospitalization due to binges every few months.....AAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
whew. that felt good just to get it all out. i feel better already