My name is Erica, I'm 20 years old and I've been suffering from anxiety since I was about 14. I was still able to lead a very active lifestyle (not necessarily a "good" one, constantly partying, doing things I shouldn't have), but I had a panic attack maybe once every 6 months or so, but it was really no problem. One day when I was 17 I had an anxiety attack so bad, I called an ambulance, I was SURE I was dying. Then started my brand new life of multiple anxiety attacks a day and agoraphobia. I couldn't leave the house at all. The first few times mom made me actually leave to get my own cigarettes, I cried the whole way there. I dropped out of high school and soon enough my mom had it with my anxious ways. She decided to kick me out of the house. And I hated her for it. I knew that the second I stepped out of the door and to my own apartment, I was going to die. I reluctantly found my own apartment with my best friend, moved in and then waited for death to come get me. But it never did. In fact, for the 2+ years I was on my own, I was back to getting an anxiety attack once every few months instead of multiple daily. And even when I got them, they were small. I was able to make a ton of new friends, land a great job as a cocktail server at a great bar downtown, get my GED and I just applied to college.
Unfortunately with the economy the way it is and me being a server and relying on tips, if everyone is broke, I'm broke too. I had to move back in with my Mom a couple months ago. And since then, I've been hit with wave after wave of anxiety attacks. I constantly think something is wrong with me. I'm terrified of anything from blood clots to my lungs failing on me. I try to meditate, talk myself out of the anxiety attacks, the little tricks that used to work before I moved back, but it hasn't worked. I'm not in a financial spot where I can move back out, but hopefully I will be soon enough.
My friends are very supportive, but they haven't been through this. I felt I needed a support group who has "been there, done that." In turn, I also hope to help others by telling them what has helped me in the past with my anxiety.
I know I've basically written a book in my "introductory" post, but I appreciate all the reads, just wanted to get to know everyone instead of lurking in the shadows :P
I'll post a few pictures of myself in the pictures thread. I can't wait to e-meet all of you :)