Hypochondria + Armpit pain, swollen lymph.

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Date Joined Feb 2009
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   Posted 2/28/2009 10:40 PM (GMT -6)   
Hey everyone.

Pretty upset right now. I have hypochondria. I'm 23 years old, male, former military.

It runs my life, and ruins everything. I suffer from General Anxiety disorder, hypochondria, obsessive compulsive, major depressive disorder, and I apparantly have a skewed perception of reality and perception checking problems - according to my psychologist.

I'm overall very healthy. I've been smoking, however, for a year and a half now, although today I bought the gum, and I'm quitting. I suppose you know... us hypochondriacs go through every phase of disorders. I've been through the AIDs panic, started at 13 (lost virginity at 19). Been through cancers, hepatitis, MS, etc, etc. I'm losing it guys. I ... I have no one in my family who cares anymore. I lost my job and my health insurance. No VA coverage because I had some army problems, whatever.

Last year, one day I was taking a shower and I was rubbing my armpit and I felt a lump. I went to the doctor and he said it was too small to biopsy, and lymph nodes sometimes just get hard/clogged. So over the last year my armpits would start to get sore sometimes. Like, it was always my right armpit. It would feel achy, kina radiate to my shoulder blade and my pec muscle. But, I duno... recently I got bit by a spider on my leg, and then I looked under my armpit the next day and there was a bigger lymph node (2 weeks ago, still swollen). Plus recently my left armpit kina aches, too. It feels like my nerves or something. It's not bone, but I also think it feels like right below my skin, like if my deodarant was causing it.

I also think it could be me smoking. It seems like whenever I smoke, I will feel the pain after for a while. I smoke like a pack a day.(Quiting tomorrow though). I duno, I have no insurance anymore, I think I could have lymphoma. I duno. I'm sorry, I usually am a very good writer, but right now I'm emotionless, and I don't care. I never get sick though. Never throw up, dont remember the last time I had diareha, or a fever, or a cold. It's just, my armpits have hurt for about a year now... and I think I feel a hard lymph node in my back under my rib cage. I duno guys... I know no one here are doctors. I'm afraid of even seeing one, he might just tell me I have what I fear the most. Plus, I have no money, no insurance, no will left to even fight. Kina feel like, if I do have cancer or whatever, it's been a good run - might just take what I can get and try to be happy. I duno, anyone... any insight? Thank you.

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   Posted 2/28/2009 10:46 PM (GMT -6)   
Hey, chin up, dude! You have all of us! We are your new family! We care about you more than you know!

Now, having said that, I wouldn't panic. I often have swollen/sore lymph nodes. Even a cold sore or canker sore will make my neck glands sore. You have an infection somewhere in your body. Probably the spider bite is acting up. If there are no red lines running from the bite site, you're okay. But if the bite is really swollen, very painful and there are red lines, I would suggest going to the doctor. They can not turn you away if you have no insurance.

Have you tried warm compresses on these areas and some Tylenol? You're too young to give up! Try what I've suggested and others will come along with more suggestions. Hang in there and remember that we're here for you! Let me know what goes on with those nodes! Carol
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   Posted 2/28/2009 10:52 PM (GMT -6)   
Sounds like your having a tough run...Hang in there babe! You have found a great site for support and advice. I hope you start to feel a little better soon. Goodluck for the quitting smoking tomorrow! Let me know how it all goes for you. gillxx


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Date Joined Feb 2009
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   Posted 2/28/2009 10:53 PM (GMT -6)   
Hey, wow.. thank you for your kindess. I'm not used to it online.

Uhm... the spider bite is all gone, or whatever it was. My grandfather died 3 months ago, so I moved out to mississippi to take care of my grandma who suffers from dementia and COPD. It's been three months out here all alone, just with her, putting up with her paranioa, never letting me leave, never giving me money, accusing me of stealing, never getting a good nights sleep. She just has broken me down. I'm waiting on my aunt to get here in two weeks then I go back home to Cali.

My mom says its nothing, so does everyone else. I dont ever really have any other symptoms but sore armpits. It feels like its coming from the lymph node. If I did have an infection, how could it last for like a year? I mean... wouldnt I be super sick by now. I duno!!! I'm losing my mind. So much in my life is going so wrong. And when I stress, my hypochondria kicks in and all I think about every minute are my armpits. I only think about death, or being sick, or... im sorry. This situation, with her... I honest am losing my mind. I need out of here.

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   Posted 3/1/2009 9:25 AM (GMT -6)   

Hey there and welcome to HealingWell and the A & P Forum. I am Kitt.

I understand how isolated you must be feeling, but perhaps it is time to tell your Mother and any other family members that you cannot be the only one to care for your Grandmother......... No one person can be on duty 24/7 without some relief.

With your own Health Anxiety issues you need time for yourself. smile

Please remember to not over think your sx, but try to stay in the moment...............if you feel you want to see a physician you need to do so.

Here is a great resource for you:

The Anxiety & Phobia Workbook, Fourth Edition

Pass Through Panic: Freeing Yourself from Anxiety and Fear
by: Claire Weekes

You can order it online and if you look to the right you will see our resources links here on HW. Amazon.com has a large selection of self help materials...........you will find they are listed in our resources.

Take care and stick with us.............you are family now.


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   Posted 3/1/2009 12:50 PM (GMT -6)   
You have reeally gotten some great support and info to look at

I do prefer my self to call it Health Anxiety lol
Many sufer with this from the a/p
I believe if possible if it keeps up I WOULD go to doc's
I am in Ontario
Why is it you cannot get OHIP
Not far from you actually

I would apply for OHIP or everyone is covered from my knowledge so check it out plz

keep us posted okay an again A war, HW Welcome

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   Posted 3/1/2009 1:47 PM (GMT -6)   
Glad to hear the spider bite is gone! You are going through a lot. I agree with others who say you can't take care of your grandma alone. Help is coming with your Aunt, so that's good. Hang in there and find some ways to reduce your stress. This forum has lots of ideas on how to do that. Let us know what's going on and how you're glands are holding up!
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   Posted 3/1/2009 3:15 PM (GMT -6)   
Hey Jaxx :)

It's nice to meet you and welcome! You have received tons of great advice and I don't have much to add, except I hope you stay with us and learn some coping techniques that will help you in overcoming your issues.

Take care and good luck with everything :)
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