Posted 3/1/2009 11:01 PM (GMT -6)
Ok guys, like you all know, I'm having a hard time with DP/DR lately together with my anxiety and depression. I feel better when I'm at home with family but when I go out and even sometimes when talking to friends I feel completely distant. I've had this before and overcame it, but this time, with the stress of having to go to work everyday, go to school and have a social life it just seems harder. I also read that derealization is also a symptom of more serious mental ilnesses like schizophrenia. Therefore, now I'm freaking out AGAIN about being crazy and actually losing completely touch with reality.
I can talk to people normally so my family don't really understand the degree of my problem but I would like advice from thos that has suffered with dp/dr and how can I deal with this sensation and be able to concentrate on my work tomorrow? It's SO hard when everything seems unreal and you are scared of having a panic attack and just want to leave and go home!!
I was FINE and connected only 2 weeks ago, and now I can't seem to get out of this constant worry/feeling a little unreal and like everyone around me has it together and I'm just this odd person. I'm not really interested in talking to my friends that much, and going out with them is SO tough because I look at them and they are all perfect and I'm feeling spacey and scared.
Yesterday I did go on a date and it was great, but I'm supposed to be MUCH more happy about it and this feeling of depression/anxiety/panic and unreality makes me SO sad and like I'm not going to get out of it this time.
Mornings are horrible because I'm scared of how I will feel or if I will finally snap out of reality completely. It feels like I'm slowly losing touch. That normally triggers and anxiety attack. I'm SO anxious about going to work tomorrow and not being able to focus.
How can I focus and try to scare away the anxious/unreal feeling? I can't believe just 2 weeks ago I felt COMPLETELY in it and on the moment at my work and now I'm back in this vicious cycle.
On the end, I'm still obssessing that I might be losing my mind because I feel disconnected from my feelings/friends/family... I can't eat and I'm thirsty most of the time. My heart is always racing.
However, I feel like the "unreal, dreamy" feeling is what's triggering my anxiety and depression. I just want to be me again, enjoy going out, watching movies, shopping!! Is there light in the end of this or am I stuck feeling this anxious and unreal forever?