"I wanna say sorry if my english is not so great I am french from quebec"
Hi, I am new here and from what I have read so far from other users about anxiety, well I find this forum fun and relieving.
So I also wanna share my anxiety symptoms.
I am 32 years old and have had episodes of normal daily stress to high anxiety since I was about 7 or 8 years old.
My first traumatic stress if I can say so was when I was around 7 or 8 years old when my father made me watch the horror movie "The Exorcist". From that night untill I was around maybe 15 years old I sleept with the blankets over my head making me stress and sweating all night.
Near 24 years old I was in a relationship with a women and from that relationship I have a son who has health problems that is he has minor Spina bifida, I say minor because he can walk and run. But its been 2 years that I am separated from this women and have my son every 2 weeks in the weekends.
I do have many more big stressful life events but I just wanted to share these 2.
Ok know to get on the real "High" of anxiety
I always found myself skinny and always wanted to pack on some extra muscles and mass. Now I do have a Normal weight 126 pounds for 5feet6. Anyways since I am 20 years old I have been trying to gain weight been up to 140 and back down to 115 doing the yoyo. Going to the gym,ect...
Here is the part, some years ago I took these weight gain shakes that are like 1000 calories in each took 2 like these per day with 3 meals a day. Now what would happen is After consuming these drinks I would sweat like crazy, I'd be lying down in my bed and after a while I would be making really big wet spots on my blankets I would have the feeling of nervousness hands and feet sweaty and my body a little shaky. So after some years I stoped these drinks and tryed Whey drinks and it seemed better.
But latley knowing that peanut butter is high in protein I said why not try peanut butter shakes. So I added around 4 big soup spoons of kraft peanut butter and here is the mistake I think, I also added 2 soup spoons of white sugar thinking it would help me gain weight faster. I did drink this shake 2 times daily with 3 meals a day and weightlifting. 1 week with this regime seemed not so bad. But slowly one day after a shake after supper I started feeling like if I was on cocaine or had drinked 20 redbulls my heart was racing fast. I then had a anxiety attack or a panic attack, I felt all weird and scared my heart was racing and now I could feel my heart pounding in my chest to my ears. I went to the emergency I thought I was having a peanut allergy or I was gonna die. At the emergency the doctor gave me 2 pills to calm down after 1 hour I was okay and went home. But from that day I had attacks and weird sensations that I have never experienced like before. These are some sensations:
Shortness of breath, I would say 2-3 words and i would need to catch back my breath.
For around 2 days I had trembling and shaking.
I would sit down and for no reason my heart would start racing, I had bad days which this would happen every 30 mins or so for no reason.
Always beeing thirsty and the need to go to the bathroom frequently.
Anxious, I would look at the clock and say oh my god I have to eat and have this little feeling of panic and urge.
Not able to sleep
The worst parts were the sense of unreality. This is hard to explain, it lasts 1 second i'd say you feel disconnected from your body a sense of unreality you think you are going crazy then your heart starts racing like crazy. Then for a while you feel like your in a dream or something. Like if your losing sense of your life. And you want your life back.
This lasted for about 6 weeks from a very high point multiply times a day to once a day to no more now. At the end when I had these attacks I was so fed up I would stay calm and i'd say to my body come on do it and lets get over it. I felt tired and I felt my body even more tired, if there was a button to put me on pause I would of pressed it.
From that day I stoped drinking coffee, pepsi, hot chocolate and try to stay away from white sugar.
I also had anxious moments with cappuccino glacé from tim hortons which was my favorite not even half way threw, it brought me in panic or anxious mode and I vomited the thing leaving me confused and shaky and a rapid heart beat. So no more...
Oh and since I did not want to take strong pills that knocks you out well in mid way I started taking B Complex which helps control cortisol.
I am very sure that the high sugar doses was the trigger, what do you think of all of this?