So, I know I am knew to this forum and I have yet to "meet" many of you....but I am just in such a funk right now. I had this terrible fear that I had herpes and I have never had symptoms or unprotected sex...but I just can't get these irrational thoughts out of my head. I keep checking myself for something that is very unlikely I have..but I just can't stop. It is beginning to make me very depressed. I am extremely social and I just haven't wanted to leave home since I started having anxiety again this week. I have been anxiety free for about 6 months and all of the sudden it came back. I just don't know what to do anymore you guys. I have to go back to school on Tuesday and leave my parents. I am really involved in a big club on campus and I am vice president of programming. I am scared that I am not going to want to socialize and I won't be myself anymore. I don't think that many people, minus my close friends, know about my anxiety and I don't want to have to answer questions. Also, I just feel dirty. I don't want to be intimate with this guy I have been seeing anymore. I don't know why. Maybe because of my fears. I just don't know what to do. I feel like my outsides don't match my insides. I look in the mirror and see a pretty girl, but I just don't feel that way inside. I also just recently changed my major from Biology to psychology. I have always loved psychology but I am scared I'm going to keep diagnosing myself with disorders because of my fears. I really want to get over this becuase I think I will be a great therapist one day. I just have to kick these crazy thoughts. What shoudl I do? Have any of you experienced these feelings? How did you get through them?
I really want thank G-d that I found this support group because, I swear, since I have...I already feel so much better.
Thank you guys so much.