My paternal grandmother who died when i was 12. sold into child slavery at age 6 by gypsy parents who couldnt afford to feed her- she overcame gang rape by german soldiers in WW2, losing a baby, having her 1st husband die in her arms, the language barrier, death of my grandfather, death of my cousin (her grandson whose anniversary was yesterday- auto accident, touchy topic right now, i loved him, he was only 26), she had severe PTSD, she went blind and never once did this woman complain. she broke her neck carrying fire wood up and down the mountains in the old country to make money for her infant daughter to keep them from literally starving- she broke her neck and survived the injury with total mobility, but she was in constant pain. she was STRONG and beautiful. she never gave up. she died an ugly death, i always prayed she would slip away in her sleep, but NO, life kicked her again and she had no peace in her truly cruel, agressive death. she was awake & concious when she asphyxiated on her own vomit after being shocked back into life by doctors who should NOT have tried to rescusitate her. She was NFR.
They say fear killed her- she was terrifed of the prospect of surgey as everyone she'd ever known that had undergone surgery had died. The doctors believe she panicked on the table before they put her under, panicked so bad that she had a series of massive heart attacks. I dont know what did it- but i know with english being her second language, she was unable to convey her fears and feelings to the hospital staff...
SO: she is the person i admire most, for all those reasons and more, God rest her soul.
'He heals the broken hearted and binds up their wounds.' (Psalm 147:3)
Panic Disorder, Agoraphobia, CFS, Fibromyalgia, Chronic Sinusitis, TMJ disorder, Endometriosis, PCOS, Chronic E.N.T and Upper respiratory tract infections, Reactive Arthritis, GERD, IBS, Glandular fever, Migraines, Anemia, Chemical/Noise/Light sensitivity, Trichotilomania, PTSD, Seasonal Mood Disorder, OCD, Benign Vertigo, Impaired immune system. Tachycardia, tinnitus, low clotting factor= bruising. Tendonitis, Bursitis.
Meds: Zoloft 150mg. Xanax 4mg. Celebrex. Mobic. Panadeine Forte. Digesic. Nexium. Phenergan.
Multiple surgeries- I bear the scars of my poor physical health.
Age:28. AP first DX @ 10. Fibro etc DX @14. Proud Aussie.