Hi family- its 4.30am here in beautiful sydney. i should be asleep, but i cant. i wake every night from fractured sleep cos my fibro has flared and i cannot get comfortable. ive just taken prescript
ion pain meds and am waiting for them to kick in, but its wrecking me and my anxiety is higher than ususal because my sleep has been so messy and scattered for weeks now. the last week has been super tough, waking up at regular intervals & not being able to take pain meds as i have to teach and i cant do that with opiates in my system. (i could try, but i think it would backfire!
I always take my Xanax before i go to bed, been doing that for 7yrs now and i swear i cant feel it. i know its working because im not in a constant state of panic, and the dose im on is substantial but it doesnt relax me the way it used to.
Im sorry- i tried reading & that didnt work (biography of Dr Catherine Hamlin who created the first 'fistula' hospital for women in ethiopia, its fascinating) so i thought id jump on here and just get this heaviness off my chest. im run down and fatigued, which in turn, makes my nerves scream.
i just want to sleep through the night like 'normal' people and get a nice 8 hours. too much to ask? apparently.
Much love from down under,