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   Posted 3/25/2009 5:56 PM (GMT -6)   
I'm having a rotten week and a half and I feel like I can't get back to myself right now.  Wound up in the ER last Tuesday night (all night) with a bad migraine (first one ever) and went back to work Thursday and got written up for absenteeism.  The end of the week I found out a guy I went to high school with had died and had to attend his funeral over the weekend.  Sunday I get a bladder infection that has been acting up off and on all week now.  My ear is all full of fluid.  I'm in menopause and hot flashes are horrible.  Today I get home and find a message on my machine to call my younger sister as soon as possible.  I call her and find out that my brother-in-law's niece had her baby today and it died a few minutes after birth (quite a few birth defects that we have known about) and I am just heartbroken.  Between my health issues and the recent two deaths, I just can't seem to cope.  I want all the health problems to go away.  I've got so many doctors appointments scheduled I'm surprised I can keep track of them.  Between that and the overwhelming sadness, I just don't have anything to give to anyone it seems like.  I've tried my best to stay in the moment and just deal with one feeling at a time but it all seems to be crashing down around me this evening.  I just needed to share all my anxiety with you all and vent I think.  I was having such a good period of less anxiety and more positive thinking for the past few months and now all this.  I know God never gives us more than we can handle, but I'm telling God right now that I've had enough.

Anxiety 2007; IBS 2004; Chronic Hives 2002.  Medications:  Allegra, Zantac, Xanax, Darvocet.

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   Posted 3/25/2009 6:06 PM (GMT -6)   


You are right, you have had more then your share.  I am sending you a bushel of (((((((((((Hugs))))))))))))).

With all that you have going on health wise and now two deaths you sound like your in a pretty normal place right now.  Your sad :(

That is ok, please let yourself believe that your feelings are due to what is happening in your life right now. 

One of the best remedies for anxiety is to talk about it. Here's where good friends and family can come in. The old adage "A problem shared is a problem halved" comes into its own here, and while you may dismiss it as nonsense, it may surprise you how anxiety alleviating it can be to just talk to someone. I hope by coming here and talking about your feelings you feel cared about and not quite so sad or alone.

May you have peace within,



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   Posted 3/25/2009 6:18 PM (GMT -6)   
Sounds like you're going through quite a bit right now, Ocean... *Hugs, hugs* Try to console yourself that... when you get through this... you'll come out of it a lot stronger.
I think I am being picked on by life, sometimes. But's that okay. Life and I are good buddies... I know life doesn't mean no harm. It just is the way it is. I can accept that.

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   Posted 3/26/2009 9:06 AM (GMT -6)   
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   Posted 3/27/2009 3:18 PM (GMT -6)   

You have alot on your plate- remember we are always here to listen and help in whatever way we can. Im sorry for your losses and i pray things start to improve. Hang in there, dont give in and dont give up,

Maz XX

            'He heals the broken hearted and binds up their wounds.' (Psalm 147:3)                  
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Date Joined Feb 2009
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   Posted 3/27/2009 4:11 PM (GMT -6)   
I hope this doesn't sound "pat", but when the river rages around us, we often wear ourselves out trying to swim against it instead of just allowing it to take us where it takes us until we reach a place where the water is calmer. I think ANYONE would feel as you do, anxiety disorder or not, if faced with everything you're dealing with right now. Just know that you are loved and supported here, and we are all pulling for you each in our own way.

You will get through this. You are strong. You are capable. You are SPECIAL! yeah

"Come to the edge," he said.
"We're afraid!" they replied.
"Come to the edge," he said.

He pushed them, and they flew...

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   Posted 3/27/2009 7:53 PM (GMT -6)   
Thanks for the hugs and kind words.  I'm in a much better place tonight than I was.  Still have a lot of high anxiety and sadness but am in a much better frame of mind.  I'm just gonna have to accept where my body is at physically and the ailments and deal with each thing as it comes and stay in the moment.  My family is attending a small private memorial service for baby Christian tomorrow.  Unfortunately, I have to work and cannot attend but they are in my prayers.

Anxiety 2007; IBS 2004; Chronic Hives 2002.  Medications:  Allegra, Zantac, Xanax, Darvocet.

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   Posted 3/28/2009 11:50 AM (GMT -6)   
My friend
THE ole Domino effect

I have also gone thru and am still going thru it
I am sooooooooo sorry that you of all ppl have to keep dealing with all of this
Plz know I am here and an email away

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   Posted 3/28/2009 1:42 PM (GMT -6)   

My Missouri Sis. . .

I'm so sorry about everything that is happening to your right now and you are in my thoughts/prayers. I hope everything starts getting better, and after reading you last post, it seems to me that you are handling the situations very well. You are a wonderful lady that is strong, and I know you will get back to your old self after dealing with the grieving process and other issues.

Your family is in my prayers as well!

Your Bro Sam

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   Posted 3/29/2009 8:23 PM (GMT -6)   
Lyn and Sam, thanks for the kind words.  I love ya all.  I am doing a bit better each day.  Just takes time.  Emotionally, I have come to terms that my high school friend and Christian (the baby) are in a much better place and not in pain or suffering and am accepting that.  Now if I could get my health issues under control I'd be in pretty good shape but I'm taking things one day at a time and just living in the present.


Anxiety 2007; IBS 2004; Chronic Hives 2002.  Medications:  Allegra, Zantac, Xanax, Darvocet.

Regular Member

Date Joined Jun 2007
Total Posts : 491
   Posted 3/29/2009 10:19 PM (GMT -6)   
ocean, i'm so sorry your getting overloaded with things, your a strong person to have to take all this in, you have my support and all your friends on here to lean on, i 'm sending you big hugs

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   Posted 3/30/2009 5:45 PM (GMT -6)   
That's all you can do, is take one thing at a time. I'm sorry to hear about your high school friend and the baby! Some times things just seem to pile up on us. You're handling your problems very well now and you should be proud of how you've turned it around. My thoughts and prayers are with you!
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