I hope you can find peace about
this fact from your past, either through contact with your half-brother, or accepting the disappointment if he chooses not to. As you said, you've done what you can for now. Try not to regret that you didn't try contact earlier. You were not in the right position, and I'm sure your feelings about
what was best at the time were accurate. It's sad, but also wise, and I think that's one of the things that makes us all stronger in facing our anxiety: being able to own our choices and know that we really did do the best we could.
Please keep us posted, and I'm sorry that you're missing your mom so much right now (and you too Raniah).
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