You are going through a very trying time right now, and any bit of help or support that we can offer is gladly YOURS. I can't imagine how you must feel, still grieving for your mother, but I know that everyone needs to grieve in their own ways and in their own time. You definitely tried your best to do what was right for her, but that doesn't make it hurt less that losing her doesn't feel like something that was right for you. Yet you made that difficult, loving choice anyway, and I'm so proud of you for putting her needs first.
The parent-child dynamic you have right now with your daughter must surely be bringing your own need to be parented very much to the fore. Lean on us: your husband, local firneds, HW friends, anyone you need to shoulder the burden for a bit, or just to recognize that hey, you are carrying one, and it hurts you.
I'm sorry that your daughter is adding to the anxiety and uncertainty of adjusting to your grieve. I'm also sorry to hear that your health is not top-notch right now. I wish you the best possible advise and treatment from your doctors.
On a minor note, are you able to tolerate fish oil capsules or garlic capsules? Both of those have helped my father and me to bring our cholesterol down some.
Also, I really get a lot out of having you on the forum, cheerful, down, or anyway you want to be. Your contributions always help me see things more clearly or click a little something that i need to think about
. Thank you for being here.
Lots of gentle hugs for you,
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DX: Anxiety, Depression, LPR (acid reflux)
Meds: Paxil, Nexium, Zantac