Posted 4/20/2009 12:55 AM (GMT -7)
Hello everyone. I am 17 years old, and I've been scheduled for a sleep study soon. The reason I'm here is because I can't seem to get to sleep.
Basically, because I have obsessive thoughts, anxiety and depression, I often worry about little things like pain in different areas that anybody else would shrug off. For instance, for the longest while I thought my heart was weak and I was going to die of a heart attack. It turned out though, that my heart was and is fine, and I am merely letting the awareness of my heart beating and my anxiety get to me. It doesn't help that I have GERD and I am overweight by about 100 pounds or so.
I have a large body frame, but I still am wanting to lose at least 100 pounds before next year, especially considering I weigh 311 and have a BMI of 42.
But the main problem I have right now is, I can't sleep. I'll have on and off periods every 1-2 weeks where I will get sleep, but still be tired, or not sleep at all, and be miserable. Basically I can't ever keep a consistent sleep schedule going. And the nights I do get sleep, it usually takes more than 3 hours to get to sleep, and when I do, sometimes it's very hard to breath, I worry about my breathing, I worry about my GERD actually being my heart (even though it isn't, it feels like it is) and it keeps me up.
Right now, it's almost 3AM where I live, and I should be in bed asleep. And yet, my worries have once again kept me from getting a restful or even remotely good nights sleep.
And the problem also is, when I do get sleep, it isn't good sleep. I can get 10-15 hours of sleep if I stay up all day from the previous night, or even sleep 10 hours regularly and still feel tired, run down, and very opinionated and agitated.
My parents have noticed that my attitude is always negative, which is part in due to my depression, but also I feel it could be my poor sleep habits. I can remember getting great nights sleep when I was younger, but ever since all of these issues developed, it's so hard to sleep at night, and if I try to pull an all niter to correct my schedule, I feel so bad I wish I was dead.
I'm so worried I might have sleep apnea or some other problem and my sleep study isn't for another week or two. I'm so tired of feeling tired. Any help would be greatly appreciated. :(