I hope you're feeling a little better with the new day. Raniah's got great advice about
calling your doctor's office for information.
Regarding antidepressants, I take Paxil and have for years. It really was a life-saver in dealing with my depression. Paxil does not heighten my anxiety; in fact, quite the opposite: it stabilizes my anxiety better than any benzo I've taken. Of course, I have been on Paxil long-term, so that likely has something to do with my body being used to functioning well on it, and the anti-anxiety meds I've tried have only been extremely short-term.
The choice to take medication at all is a very personal one, with people feeling very strongly in both directions and all over the spectrum in between. Getting more information from your doctor may allow you to make this choice based less on fear of meds in general and more on the specific pros and cons for you. My choice was to take antidepressants, and I've definitely benefitted from having done that.
Big hugs to you, and let us know what you find out,
Co-Moderator, Anxiety and Panic Forum
DX: Anxiety, Depression, LPR (acid reflux)
Meds: Paxil, Nexium, Zantac