I am so sorry to hear about
your brother's death; that must be a very hard issue for you to face, on top of everything else.
Alwayslove has a very good point: although you feel that the symptoms are back at square one, YOU are not. You have developed many skills and strengths during these past years of fighting anxiety, and so you are better equipped. You may not feel like it, or you may feel rusty, but try to encourage yourself by the fact that you've survived in the past.
I can certainly recommend counseling very highly. It has made a world of difference in how I tackle my anxiety. There's still a long way to go, but I feel more hopeful at times thanks to the therapy.
Do please share the things that have helped you in the past.
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DX: Anxiety, Depression, LPR (acid reflux)
Meds: Paxil, Nexium, Zantac