Well, I have a sick kitten. Something is wrong with her and we just can't figure it out. So hubby decided it was time to take her to the vet. (that is where she is at now).
I decided to go since hubby doesn't handle these things very well. A lot better then me but I know he needed the support. He is the cat lover in the family.
Well they did a few things. Checked temp, and squeezed her all over. She threw up lke 4 times in the process. (the reason we took her). Anyway they mentioned needed blood work, possible surgery and other things.
BAMB, I instantly need to run. I was fine through the other few things. As soon as they mentioned surgery and blood work. I was finished. Felt faint, out of control. And just total freaking out.
Hubby had to bring me home. He is headed back to the vet to stay with her while they finish some of the testing. I feel so bad not being there with her. She is so attached to me. And yet I can't handle my thoughts/anxiety enough to stay.
Its soo stupid. I should be able to handle this stuff. But there is just no way I can. I haven't been able to in many many years. Can't take my kids for shots, or my pets to the vet. Someone has to do it for me.
Now I'm dealing with a numb feeling in my right arm. I'm used to the left side acting up. But now its switching to the right side which means new symptoms I have to work through.
Along with head tingling sentsations. Like someone is running there hands gently through your hair and it gives you the shivers. Started last night.
Can I just lose control and get it over with?!! Sometimes I would so love to not fight it.
Off to take a nap. Gotta sleep this off.