Feel like I'm loosing my mind! Anxiety and Depression!

Does your anxiety ever cause you racing thoughts that make you feel like your loosing your mind?
Yes - 90.0%
No - 10.0%

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   Posted 5/16/2009 8:42 AM (GMT -6)   
Hello!  I really need someone right now!  I feel like I'm loosing my mind!  I feel like I'm stuck inside some twisted scarey movie!  I just woke up from a dream that I was on some kinda halusagenagins (sorry I cant spell).  I was halusinating.  That is one of my worst fears is to halusinate ( I know I'm still spelling it wrong)!  It just freaks me out so bad!  Well I woke up and I'm still in that sorta dream mode.  I cant seem to pull myself out of it!
Also I am feeling really just like a mix of anxiety and depression.  I love life and I do believe things can change, but I'm terrified that I'm going to become suicidal!  Well I read all the symptoms that tell you when to worry about suiced and I dont fit any of them.  I dont WANT to want to kill myself.  I DONT want to kill myself!  I'm just afraid that all of a sudden I will!  I dont have a suicide plan!  I havent thought of ways to kill myself!  (I read that we arnt supposed to talk about being suicidal.  I'm NOT suicidal, I'm just scared of becoming that way!)  All I really want is to know that I'm not alone on this fear!  That others have had it and didnt become suicidal.  Just someone to tell me its a common fear. 
Has someone else ever felt kinda depressed and then it gets worse at times and they arnt suicidal but they fear they will become that way?
I look around at things in my life and sometimes I cant find anything to do that will make me happy!  I dont know, maybe its because I dont work right now and I just sit at home most of the time.  Maybe its a form of cabin fever.  Just me thinking too much.  I know I CAN be happy.  I had a bad day yesterday but I mean, we all have our bad days right?  Yeah, I mean, even then I had a few good laughs yesterday.  I didnt feel like just laying in bed crying or just laying in bed.  I havent lost interest in showering or going places to try to have fun.  My thoughts just race a lot and they have just been negative a lot of yesterday and so far this morning.  I'm ok though right? 
I also am worried that I may be bipolar.  Like I might have one of the worst forms of bipolar disorder and I'm just going to loose it!  Like what if I just start halusinating?  What if I have a nervous breakdown?  My thoughts race so much all day that its hard for me to ever find peace doing anything!  Could that just be anxiety or does it sound like something more?  Does racing thoughts cause nervous break downs?
Somebody please tell me you have felt this way before!!!!!!!

Post Edited (Jennara) : 5/16/2009 7:59:07 AM (GMT-6)

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   Posted 5/16/2009 10:51 AM (GMT -6)   

I can't say that I have felt that way, but I have been extremely anxious before where I can't think. Do you have any anxiety meds you can take to help calm you down? If not, maybe you can get into an urgent walk in clinic and maybe get a prescription for one of the fast acting meds such as Xanax to help for now. Please try to stay in the moment and kick the stinkin thinkin to the curb. Also, stay off the internet looking up symptoms as that will only make the anxiety worse. Good luck!

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   Posted 5/16/2009 8:05 PM (GMT -6)   
I agree with Nanners she has such good advice!

I would also try and force yourself to focus on your breathing. Every breath from head to toe. Breath in as if your smelling a sweet rose or your favorite flower. As you exhale picture/ feel the bad thoughts leaveing. Again work head to toe. If done right you will feel calm and relaxed and at ease.
I do this by picturing my body all blue (bright blue btw) and with every exhale the blue is replaced by a lovely green. Slowly my toes first then whole foot is replaced with this gorgous green meadow color. I continue until my whole body is green and happy and healthy. It relaxes me and forces my mind to focus on something else. Once finished I will find something I love to do and keep my mind busy. If it starts to falter then I return to my place of peace and start over.
This also will help me fall asleep if I'm having a really rough day.

Talk to your doctor! Tell them everything that is going on. Reinforcement for a medical professional is always a little relief. Not always 100% but something is better then nothing!

Good luck and keep us posted on how your doing

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   Posted 5/17/2009 8:57 AM (GMT -6)   

Hey Jen,

I have had racing thoughts but never felt like I was loosing my mind, just felt very uncomfortable and unable to make any decisions when in that mode.

Any plan for reducing anxiety must include gaining control of damaging thoughts and mental images. Yes and drop kick that "stinkin thinkin"  You don't need it.

Relaxation exercises are also good for occupying mental capacity. Relaxation exercises are techniques to relax muscles and relieve tension by using controlled breathing and muscle flexing. They usually involve sitting down in a comfortable chair, closing your eyes and systematically tensing and relaxing different muscle groups in your body, usually starting with the legs and feet.

As you slow down your breathing and work your muscles, you are supposed to mentally put yourself in what you would consider a relaxing situation. The best thing about relaxation exercises is that they can be done almost anywhere and at anytime. Remember to use a sitting position when doing the exercises rather than lying down since you do not want to fall asleep.

Try this method and if you need more ideas please ask.
Remember you have anxiety, it does not have you.
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   Posted 5/18/2009 4:59 PM (GMT -6)   
Yep, I've felt everything you mentioned. Scarey, isn't it? You need to remember that scarey thoughts won't hurt you. Let them come and go without fighting them. You are in need of some medication for your anxiety/depression. Speak to a doctor and get some help. Remember, you're not alone.
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   Posted 5/18/2009 10:26 PM (GMT -6)   
Yes ! I have felt all of what you are saying...for several years. After many doctor visits and many tests I believe it is all related to menopause and hormones fluctuations. My mother had a lot of the same symptoms. She is fine now! I am about to turn 53 and believe I will be feeling much better in the new future.
I recommend finding a medical professional that will listen to ALL the symptoms you are having before making a diagnose. I have opted to go through menopause without adding hormones to my body. Not for everyone!
I will be praying for you: the right people, the right places, at the right time...
take care of yourself!
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