P-Fit, I have to agree with Kitt. Please know that you were not in any way responsible for your sisters death. I just believe that you are going thru another phase in your grief. I lost my Mom in January. We had to remove her from life support. We all had a meeting with the doctors and they told us my mother could not survive without life support, so we all made the joint decision to remove her from the machines as her wish was not to be maintained by machines.
I stayed with my Mom from the time she was removed from the machines till she passed. My mom was made comfortable and did not suffer.
I tell you this because, since then I have suffered with alot of guilt. Did we remove her too soon from the machines? Did the medication to keep my mom comfortable (that I gave the ok for)cause my Mom to o'd? All silly questions, because the doctors had all assured us that she couldn't survive without the machines. These are normal feelings that we have when a loved one passes. It is another stage of grief.
Allow yourself to grieve for your sister, but rest assured you were not the cause of her passing.
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