Today was one of the worst days emotionally I've had in a long time. My family got together yesterday for my sisters birthday. We've all been depressed since my other sisters death in March, so we really wanted to enjoy the day. Everything was fine until I drove my mother home. We passed the baseball stadium and she started to talk about
my brother who died in 2007. He was a season ticker holder for 25yrs. The anniversary of his death is on Tuesday. Well, on the way home I had a panic attack. I was able to breathe through it and didnt take any additional meds.
Today we were getting ready to go to my in'laws when I got a sharp back pain...like a muscle pull. It kinda moved to my chest and I just lost it. I started shaking and crying uncontrollably. I cried for an hour straight while trying to NOT go to the ER again. I think my husband is getting frustrated with me, although he wont say it. I basically shut down and slept for 3 hours. I feel SO drained and tired right now. My body is tingling and I have that burning sensation that I haven't had in a year in my chest, back, arms and legs. Maybe my emotions are finally coming out from my sisters/brothers death since my dose of Lexapro has been lowered. I dont know. I just feel such a wreck right now.
Dee-39yrs old wife and mom of 3 boys
UC/PTSD/Panic Disorder/Depression/myofacial pain syndrome 2009-750mg colozal/.750mg clonazepam, 5mg Lexapro-1,000mg canasa/Fioricet/Prilosec OTC-2x daily, Triple Strength Fish Oils/Colonoscopies-4
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