Paulos, the only way you'll get help is to ask for it. Asking for help includes telling your story. It's time to let it all out and move on. Maybe you're afraid to get better? Maybe you don't know what lies ahead and it's frightening? This is no way to live.
open up to your friends here and let's get to the bottom of your problem(s).
Generalized Anxiety Disorder
60 mg. Prozac, Ativan as needed.
"The part can never be well unless the whole is well." Plato