Back in April I suffered my first panic attack at a restaurant out with my boyfriend and some friends. After that it was all downhill from there. I started getting them weekly, and then every other day. Eventually I became what I thought was depressed and had extreme feelings of guilt and worthlessness. I sought help in May and was prescribed 12.5 mg to start with Zoloft, plus 1mg ativan 1-2 times daily. It has been almost five weeks now, and although i have noticed the obsessive guilty feelings about past failures have subsided clearing my mind a little bit, i am still extremely anxious.
This is my first week at 50 mg of Zoloft and I take 1 mg of ativan in the morning. I have tried to avoid the ativan as much as possible because I do not want to become addicted. However, if I don't take it my thoughts get out of control and i start obsessing about when this will go away, will it ever go away, will i lose my boyfriend because of it and eventually will i have to be admitted to the hospital? these thoughts spiral and then my day is ruined...i cant eat, and i have a feeling of despair in my chest that i can't describe.
Has anyone been here before? Should I be giving the zoloft more time? I feel so hopeless right now. I have had to put so many future plans on hold.
I would love to hear success stories / advice from people who are currently or are recovered.