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Date Joined Jun 2009
Total Posts : 15
   Posted 6/4/2009 12:02 PM (GMT -6)   
Hey guys,
So this week has been a tough one for me as I have mentioned before. The previous two weeks I was doing a whole lot better, I have no idea what happened. I have been waking up sick to my stomach and I am not sure if it is due to nerves or the zoloft.
Anyways, my parents are getting frustrated with me and the situation. Ever since I had my first panic attack my mom has said "if you don't get a hold of yourself, you will be hospitalized."  This, i must say has been my worst fear, and everytime i have anxiety or get discouraged with the zoloft i have visions in my head of being hospitalized, my boyfriend and parents..all being embarassed and humiliated.
I discussed this with my psychiatrist and she reassured me that today, hospitalization is only necessary if you are a harm to yourself or others, which i am neither.
I am just getting so discourage because I feel no relief from the symptoms, and because of that the "locked down psych ward hospitalization" visions come floating in to my head, making it hard for me to calm down.
Any suggestions? I am so upset.

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Date Joined Apr 2009
Total Posts : 114
   Posted 6/4/2009 12:32 PM (GMT -6)   
I can relate with your story to a degree.
When I was about 19 I experienced a rather sudden onset of IBS (although at the time I had no idea what was wrong with me.) My family and even my primary care physician at the time chalked it up to me being overly anxious. Yeah..when you're afraid of pooping your pants everyday, I'd think you'd be a bit anxious too!
Anyway, the IBS triggered extreme anxiety in me. I was quickly labelled a head case by my fam and my docs. They would just tell me to relax and that the pain was all in my head. Psychosomatic I think was the word that was used. It was terrible. I beat myself up all the time thinking I was causing my problems. The doc put me on Zoloft as well. It didn't agree with my tummy, but it zapped those panic attacks in their tracks. I went off it because I didn't like the side effects and I felt my parents were embarassed I was on an a/d. They never wanted to talk about it. I felt very alone and scared.
I've suffered from both IBS and anxiety ever since (I am now 28) and only within the last couple of years have my parents truly understood what I am going through on a daily basis. It took having terrible panic attacks in front of my mom and being nearly hospitalized from extreme abdominal pain due to my IBS and biopsies in my colon that revealed abnormal cells that made them wake up to the fact there was something organically wrong with my body that was causing me to go nuts.
I brought them in to talk with my gastroenterolgist about the severity of my IBS and during that conversation we delved into the impact it had on my mental well-being and quality of life, i.e. it was causing me great mental distress and anxiety.  This finally made them realize they needed to approach me with more sensitivity.
Not to bash my folks. They are the kindest, most loving people around and have supported me through everythinng. I am truly blessed. However, they have never personally experienced anything quite like this and since I have always demonstrated the ability to be capable and excel at whatever I attempt, they figured I could control this as well. I'm a lawyer. I'm therefore a professional problem solver and I"m good at it. I just can't solve my own problems all the time. That was hard for them to understand.
Long story long (hehe) I think you should try to educate them on the subject of your anxiety. Maybe give them literature on the subject that educates them about your condition, or gives them advice on how to deal with a loved one going through what you are experiencing.
My guess is that like my folks, what they don't know they can't understand. It breeds not only ignorance about your struggles, but a sort of unintended apathy. If you are young, and I am guessing you are, then it's also hard for parents to think that their healthy young kid can be experiencing something like this. Maybe your mom thinks she can "scare" you into acting better. I don't know. If your doc is willing, take your mom and dad in to meet with him/her and have the doc explain what is going on , what to expect, how to help you get better.
Much love to you. I know how tough this is.

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Date Joined Mar 2009
Total Posts : 341
   Posted 6/4/2009 12:34 PM (GMT -6)   
Afternoon Avolleyball,

I wouldn't worry about being stuck in the hospital. There is a descussion about this a few posts down I believe.

There was something said in the post that has been a big relief to me. And it made me think about it a little bit. As I have 3 mental health issues in my family.
Anyway. People who think they are going crazy actually don't. People who do end up in the hospital don't realize it. So to say. You wont end up in the hospital. You know what is going on and are totally aware of it. Which means your mind is working the way it is supposed to. All in all your NOT going to end up there.

So get that out of your mind. And I would suggest you mention to your mom that statements like that do NOT help you in the least. That support is what you need and not negative thoughts and influences. I would also try and educate your family on what anxiety/pa is. Get some pamphlets from the doc. Look up information and print it out.

If the dose of zoloft you are on is to much. See your doc and talk to him about it. Call the pharmacist and see if it is normal to have an upset tummy on your dose. Everyone reacts differently. And this just might be a reaction you are having that will pass in time. When I was on buspar. Talk about tummy upset. I felt sick for 2 weeks. Then it went away. Took 4 hours before my tummy felt like heck which I got lucky because it was after my first shift. And only lasted for about an hour.

I have not taken zoloft. But a lot of anxiety/depression meds will make the anxiety worse before better. So keep that in mind. It is very common to feel worse for 1-2 weeks after taking or upping doses. And then week 2-4 you will notice small improvements. Some so small you wont notice until later or not at all.

Just take a deep breath and keep in mind. You will not are you are not going crazy. And you need support not bad comments or thoughts but into your head.

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Date Joined Apr 2009
Total Posts : 114
   Posted 6/4/2009 1:08 PM (GMT -6)   

"People who think they are going crazy actually don't. People who do end up in the hospital don't realize it. So to say. You wont end up in the hospital. You know what is going on and are totally aware of it."

That is so simple, but makes perfect sense. What a good thing to keep in mind!

Grizzly pooh
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Date Joined May 2009
Total Posts : 72
   Posted 6/5/2009 4:33 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi Avolleyball, I've had a terrible time getting used to my anti-depressants and I ended up at the hospital emergency ward last Saturday because I was so incredibly agitated and suicidal. Anyway took valium to knock me out and got through it. Just hang in there and keep telling people what's going on. My parents took a while to realise how serious it was, it just happens they were here to see me in 'action' last weekend so they finally got that it is real and I need their help and support. Take care xx
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