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Date Joined May 2009
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   Posted 6/10/2009 8:50 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi everyone (Warning...venting ahead)
 Last night was rough and I hardly slept as my anxiety has kicked in full strenghth.  The main reason I have anxiety was from having back surgery in April.  A Herniated Disc sent me to a surgeon in March and 2 weeks later I was on an operating table.  All very fast.  I am having trouble coping with this and it has changed me as a person which I am very sad about.  On june 1, my 2 boys were taking a bath while I threw a load of laundry in the washer.  My 2 year old started screaming and like any mom...I rushed to him thinking he was hurt.  I ran into the bathroom and the floor was covered in water.  I hit the linolium, slipped and fell.   I landed on my left side and did not have any back pain.  The next day my shoulder where it hit and a part of my thigh was sore but that went away very quickly.  4 days after the fall, I started feeling the same "pulled muscle" feeling in upper butt muscle I had when I had the herniated disc, except now on the other side. I used to feel everything on left side, now it's on the right.  Over the weekend I monitored it to see if it was the crazy stormy weather.  I started doing my physical therapy stretches again too but the dull ache has not gone away.  I mustered up the courage and left a message for my orthopaedic surgeon yesterday morning to explain what happened (and maybe set my mind at ease) and he did not call me back.  I am TERRIFIED that I re-herniated the disc and will need to go into surgery again.  How would I cope? 
I have so much on my plate today and I can't focus.  I am having this awful feeling which started 2 weeks ago and won't go away.  It almost feels like what being "high" on drugs must feel like or a drunk feeling.   I started on zoloft and will be taking my 3rd pill today hoping this would balance me out and make this weird feeling go away but so far...not yet.  I have a 10 hour workday ahead of me filled with meetings and all I want to do is crawl into bed and cry.  I am trying to do breathing exercises to calm me down but nothing is working.  I physically cannot concentrate when I am at work because I feel "high on drugs" and my performance is slipping big time.  I do not want to lose my job which I have worked so hard for.  It is hard to think what can happen to your life in just 2 months. 

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Date Joined Apr 2007
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   Posted 6/10/2009 9:16 AM (GMT -6)   


I see a couple of things that stuck out in your post.  First of all I suspect you are having some anticipatory anxiety re the fall and you are going through all the what ifs.  What if I reinjured my back? What if I need surgery again?  What if I cannot work and lose my job?  Try to pull back and stay in the moment.

Make an appointment with your PCP or Surgeon to have your back looked at right away................. Your first surgery came up really fast and you did not appear to have any time to plan ahead for it in your mind, you were caught off guard.  Now you are anticipating that this has happened again.

You are just on day 3 or 4 of your new med and the side effects getting on to the med are most likely causing you some issues. 

In a few people, Zoloft may trigger the grandiose, inappropriate, out-of-control behavior called mania or the similar, but less dramatic, "hyper" state called hypomania.

I do not think that is your problem but if you continue to feel out of sync do talk with your physician.

Agitation and anxiety are common side effects of Zoloft and once your body gets used to the medication you should notice a decrease in these feelings. It usually takes 4-6 weeks for the full therapeutic effect of this medication to work.

Please do try to stay in the moment and kick the stinkin thinkin to the curb.  You are going to make it through.

Keep on talking to us as we are here to support you.




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Date Joined Dec 2008
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   Posted 6/10/2009 3:27 PM (GMT -6)   
Well, I applaud you for going to work every day. That must not be easy. Kudos to you! I'm thinking the side effects of the Zoloft are what is making you feel strange. Unfortunately, you have to give it a few more weeks to set in. Can you ask your doctor for Xanax, Klonopin, Ativan or Valium to take as needed? These usually help with the side effects of anti-depressants and it may help with work. Just a thought and I sure hope you feel better soon!
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"The part can never be well unless the whole is well." Plato

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