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   Posted 6/25/2009 1:36 PM (GMT -6)   
OK well the last post I wrote I know was legitimate because the problem w/ my throat has cleared but now I know it is a mental issue. I'm a TOTAL mess. I don't know what happened to me but after the knee surgery I feel like a different person..I feel no happiness or joy...But it's not like I feel sorrow either like I'm numb or can't feel...The weird thing is It just comes over me nothing that I'm doing causes it...I get this lump in my throat and my breathing feels restricted and dread and fear take over me. I've checked my heart rate at these times and it doesn't race at all. but I get so scared...I figured out yesterday that my fear is death which is pretty common but it's more of the fear my health will kill me...I NEVER was like this before..NEVER! My philosophy was "if it happens, it happens" now I'm terrified I will... I try to tell my husband but he can't quite understand and I don't know where else to turn...The hubby thinks maybe it may be a health issue that's causing me to have a anxiety attack but then that only fuels the flame for me...It's been 3 weeks since my Knee surgery and I see everyone out and about smiling and laughing and I feel nothing but misery...I don't want to feel this way anymore...I want to go back to who I was before....I don't know if going through surgery can do this or if maybe something w/ the meds went wrong..I don't know! I tried to talk to the Surgeon and the anesthesiologist but no one can help plus I went to my Internist and he recommended Lexapro but I refused cause I want to do this without meds....I don't really know what I'm looking for here but I suppose support and understanding...Thanks in advance!
Dx w/ Crohn's Disease May 2000
Medication: Imuran 150 Mg, Asacol 400MG
Dx w/ Hypothyroid 2001
Medication: Levoxyl 88MCG
Small Bowel Resection November 2008

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   Posted 6/25/2009 1:51 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi Elexis,

I think what might be going on with you is you have had alot to deal with this past year healthwise. You just had knee surgery, you had a resection in November, so its no wonder you are feeling anxious about your health.

I think it might be a good idea if you could get in and see a therapist who deals with chronic health issues. I think things are just giving you the feeling that things are piling up on you. And its no wonder since you have been thru so much recently.

I have had Crohns for over 30 years and just about 2 years ago I developed anxiety related to the Crohns. But thru therapy and the occasional use of Xanax I am better able to control it now. I can relate to how you feel because over the past 7 years or so I have had multiple surgeries myself. It does get to you after awhile.

Do please call and see if you can get a referral to a therapist, I really think it will help.

Gail *Nanners*
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Been living with Crohn's Disease for 33 years. Currently on Asacol, Prilosec, Estrace, Prinivil, Diltiazem, Percoset prn for pain, Zofran, Phenergan, Probiotics, Calcium  w/Vit D, and Xanax as needed for my anxiety.  Resections in 2002 and 2005. Also diagnosed with Fibromyalgia, Osteoarthritis, and Anxiety. Currently my Crohns is in remission, but my joints are going crazy!
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   Posted 6/25/2009 2:37 PM (GMT -6)   
I agree. It's no wonder why you're feeling depressed and anxious. You've gone through a lot in the last few months. Depression is often normal following surgery. I'm not a professional but that's one thing I've learned by coming here to this forum.

Just like your knee needs time to recover, so does your mind. Remind yourself that it's over and the future is ahead of you. Find some pleasant things to do. Try to keep your mind off of your body. Finding a therapist sounds like a good idea. It can only help. Good luck to you and let us know how you're feeling.
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   Posted 6/25/2009 3:28 PM (GMT -6)   
You got some good advice there Elexis.

Your body goes through a lot when we have surgery. Our mind goes through even more as our body recovers.

IMHO I think having a limb surgery. Your being knee. We get upset, depressed, and anxiety comes in. Recovery alone is a challenge. Its hard to get around. Life is just not like it was before.
Trouble walking, inability to just get up and move when you want to. Limited activity. And you just don't feel the same for a good amount of time.

I've had only 3 "surgeries" all of them being c-sections. Yep I had a hard time getting up and around. But not because I had a limb in pain. So I was able to get up and do what I wanted when I wanted. Infact just a few hours after surgery I was up pacing the hall ways.

You on the other hand couldn't your mobility has been impaired. Rather it be a little or a lot.

And that alone can reek havoc on someones body and mind.

So giving yourself the needed time for recovery is very important. You have gone through a lot. Keep that in mind. Your body needs special treatment. And is asking for it. Your mind wants things to be back to your normal routine. And is having a very hard time accepting the limitations right now. Give your body the time it needs to heal.

Give yourself a needed break. And keep in mind that you are ok. Recovery is in process and you will be up and going in due time. When you body is ready. And your thoughts will follow.

Take care of yourself. Get some rest and try to relax.


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   Posted 6/25/2009 4:00 PM (GMT -6)   
Thanks so much everyone.....Gail ur definitely right...Because of the health issues this is the result... (Cary-Ann)As for my knee I actually had arthroscopic surgery and was up moving that same day...I wasn't immobile at all...Actually the day after I was in a state as the dr said of an adrenaline rush..I couldn't stop moving..It felt like I was having a panic attack ALL day long..Oh gosh the knee was PREFECT the next day and I was moving around I had too couldn't sit still.. But I understand what your trying to say Cary-Ann, My mind is taking a hit along w/ my body...

I'm going to look into a therapist tomorrow...If it helps me be the person I once felt like it's what I have to do...

Also I wanted to ask since there are some ppl who have had surgery...Is it possible to have dreams while you are under anesthesia? I have had 4 surgeries in my 30 yrs of life and have never dreamed before...I thought it was odd but, felt silly asking the doctor..Plus I didn't want him to think I had a few screws loose..EHehEHHe....
Dx w/ Crohn's Disease May 2000
Medication: Imuran 150 Mg, Asacol 400MG
Dx w/ Hypothyroid 2001
Medication: Levoxyl 88MCG
Small Bowel Resection November 2008

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   Posted 6/25/2009 4:38 PM (GMT -6)   

Hey there,

I am sorry your having so much anxiety but I do believe the wise and wonderful members have give you great advice. (((((((((HUGS)))))))))))

Yes you can dream while under anesthesia from what I understand. The similarities between the patients' dreams while under anesthesia and during natural sleep suggest that the dreams during anesthesia occur during the early recovery period when patients are still lightly sedated, but are in a definite sleep state.

The dreaming reported by many patients during surgery, in most cases, does not mean the anesthesia is wearing off.  I hope that answers your question.

Take care and keep on talking with us.



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