I am so sorry for what happened in your life. I really think that therapy with a trained therapist/psychiatrist would be the best person for you to talk to about
this issue. Your friends can help, but only so much. I think thru therapy you can start to move past these fears.
Also, I have Crohns Disease myself and that issue alone can cause you to feel very alone too. Who wants to hear about
your bowel problems, so I feel your pain there. So even a therapist who deals with chronic illnesses will benefit you.
Sending healing prayers and thoughts your way.
Gail*Nanners* Co-Moderator for Crohns Disease and Anxiety/Panic Forum
Been living with Crohn's Disease for 33 years. Currently on Asacol, Prilosec, Estrace, Prinivil, Diltiazem, Percoset prn for pain, Zofran, Phenergan, Probiotics, Calcium w/Vit D, and Xanax as needed for my anxiety. Resections in 2002 and 2005. Also diagnosed with Fibromyalgia, Osteoarthritis, and Anxiety. Currently my Crohns is in remission, but my joints are going crazy!
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