I think you might really have more anxiety than depression (my non professional opinion). I have a chronic illness and found that whenever I had to be out of work for a time, my anxiety would kick in because I was worried of "what my coworkers/bosses were thinking". Of course thats just your stinkin thinkin trying to creep in, no one is probably saying anything. So first off try to kick that ol stinkin thinkin to the curb. I would suggest you talk with your doctor about a fast acting med such as Xanax. I take the lowest dose available, and its stops the anxiety in its tracks. I am able to control my anxiety with the occasional help of my Xanax. I only take it maybe 1-3 times a month now. Its not something you take daily, as it you can become dependent on it. But for a here and now med, its great. I am sure once you get back to work you will start feeling better too, less time to think.
Gail*Nanners* Co-Moderator for Crohns Disease and Anxiety/Panic Forum
Been living with Crohn's Disease for 33 years. Currently on Asacol, Prilosec, Estrace, Prinivil, Diltiazem, Percoset prn for pain, Zofran, Phenergan, Probiotics, Calcium w/Vit D, and Xanax as needed for my anxiety. Resections in 2002 and 2005. Also diagnosed with Fibromyalgia, Osteoarthritis, and Anxiety. Currently my Crohns is in remission, but my joints are going crazy!
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