Thank you all for you support and encouragement! I wanted to come on here and tell you all that I am fine. Not just that, I'm feeling a bit silly. I went in a few days ago and had 3 of my wisdom teeth removed. I had the gas, (first I said I didnt want it), it helped and didnt make me feel strange at all! It made me feel alot better! Then they gave me the IV that DID NOT hurt. And the scariest part of all, which was being put to sleep, it was NOTHING! It was absolutely nothing to be afraid of! I actually remember it as a pleasant experience. I just felt a release. I felt really at peace and happy as I drifted off. Funny because when I first got there, I told them I was so terrified! I kept asked what they were doing and why. I was so drawn up and tense! I was in tears with fear!
The gas didnt make me feel completely relaxed at first. It didnt feel like much at all, at first. It made me a little numb for the IV and then started to make me feel like laughing. I remember feeling happy. Then the doctor and nurse started talking to me about an old children's show I used to watch. We were laughing. Then he let me know when he was giving me the anesthesia, and as nervous as I had been, it felt very relaxing! I was worried that it would just feel like I didnt have control over whether or not I fell asleep. I HATE feeling out of control! But it didnt feel like that at all! It felt so pleasant! Like I just WANTED to drift off.
When I woke up, I was in no pain! I was numb and I still felt very relaxed and happy! I was telling the nurses how glad I was that I did it! I never even got sick to my stomach which I have had surgery before and I did before. Medical science is getting better and better! I was so terrified and such a wreak for weeks over this! It was NOTHING! I'd do it again tomorrow if I needed to, and I wouldnt be afraid at all!
My mouth hurts some. They did give me meds for that. Ofcoarse its going to hurt some. Nothing like I thought it would though! And that reminds me, I'm NOT afraid of meds anymore! I was beyond terrified of them before! Just so much fear of taking anything! I used to just sit and wait for how it was going to make me feel, then I'd freak myself out into believing something was wrong. I have been given alot of meds after this surgery and they dont hurt me at all! The hydrocodone are strong and yeah, make me a little antsy for a little bit. Not panicy! If I focused on that, I could probably freak myself out but since I was given the med after the surgery, I realized that its nothing. I see medication for what it is now! Its not something to worry so much about. I mean, I still think you should be informed on your meds. I just think now, you should trust your doctor. I never trusted my doctors and I never had a reason not to. I hope somebody reads this that needs it!
I feel so free from fear now that I have done this stuff! I made it! I found that it was nothing! I feel free!!!!
Thank you all for your help and support!