I agree with Kitt, find something else to focus on!! Also, I feel for you as your anxiety is so high, but I really hope with all the hoops your doctor went thru that you go thru with your surgery. I think if you don't, then who knows when you will be able to get this obviously needed surgery. I would recommend you taking your Xanax the morning of your surgery to help calm your fears some. You wouldn't be human if your weren't nervous. Also, be sure to ask the anthesieologist for something to help calm you when you get to the hospital. I have had so many surgeries I have lost track of the number, but I always ask as I am always nervous too. I am sure everything will turn out well, and before you know it you will be on the road to recovery.
Gentle hugs and Best wishes,
Gail*Nanners* Co-Moderator for Crohns Disease and Anxiety/Panic Forum
Been living with Crohn's Disease for 33 years. Currently on Asacol, Prilosec, Estrace, Prinivil, Diltiazem, Percoset prn for pain, Zofran, Phenergan, Probiotics, Calcium w/Vit D, and Xanax as needed for my anxiety. Resections in 2002 and 2005. Also diagnosed with Fibromyalgia, Osteoarthritis, and Anxiety. Currently my Crohns is in remission, but my joints are going crazy!
*Every tomorrow has two handles. We can take hold of it by the handle of anxiety, or by the handle of faith"*