I had my 2nd CBT session on Monday of this week. It was nearly three weeks following my first one due to my doctor's schedule and a vacation I had planned.
After reviewing some of my journaling re anxiety producing events and discussing my thoughts about certain events in my past, the therapist says it appears that my predominant mode of thinking is "catastrophizing" and "all or none." That is so very interesting to me. I had not thought about it before, but realize that it is very true. This causes me to feel overwhelmed and stressed, not mention exhausted from all the worry, and it all adds to my anxiousness. We are going to delve deeper and I am so excited to do so! Unlocking the sources of my anxiety and understanding the way my mind works is liberating.
We also discussed the mountains of stress and anxiety surrounding my job. She validated that anyone would be stressed in my shoes and I am actually handling it well, which made me feel good.
Going on 2 months on Celexa. All is fine except that I have completely lost any interest in sex and achieving orgasm is about as challenging summiting Everest :( Boyfriend is understanding and supportive, but it still is tough.
Overall though, I feel good. I feel I am making progress every day..baby steps towards getting better. I am more able to kick my anxiety to the curb when it rears its ugly head, which helps me build confidence in my ability to control this some day.
I didn't get to this point overnight. So, I just have to remind myself, I won't get better overnight. It is going to take a lot of motivation and dedication and openness with myself.
27 year old female
Dx: IBS-D - 2004
GAD - 2008
Meds: 30 mg Celexa, .5- 1mg Klonopin